My Mosaic

Mad too @Jynx especially after they were all there on Friday and we talked about it. Only due to see my support worker tomorrow- suppose to get my bloods done but dont wanna.

@Bow I hope you're able to express your disappointment to them at some point. It's your recovery journey, and you're allowed to ask for your needs to be met.

Does your support worker know enough about what's going on to be able to provide what you need tomorrow?

If a plan could be put in place, what would you want to happen?

Just wanted to feel like I mattered enough for them to show some care. But obviously I don’t.

I think my support worker knows enough @Jynx and she is due to meet me for my bloods, but she also said that she may get a call in the morning and need to provide support to someone else instead. I understand I take a lot of her time and it’s only a blood test.

I had imagined it would be nice to have someone see me. Help distract me. Make sure I am ok. Make sure I am safe. A phone call. So I don’t feel so alone. But feels like I have none of that. Want the world to just swallow me

I’ll be in your pocket @Bow

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You do matter @Bow - to all of us here, to your family, to the world. It is not fun to feel like your supports aren't putting enough in, and I wish I could do something to change that.

Could you ask your support worker if there's anything they could do, someone they could contact and get them to check in on you?

I'll be around tomorrow evening to hold your hand hun 💜

@Jynx I guess I could try sending my sw a text in the morning, if I get there.

@Bow you will, I know you will hun - cos I have so much faith in you. Even when you can't have it in yourself.

I think a lil text sounds like a good idea. Could you also email the counselling team, ask to see if they could call you tomorrow some time? I know phone is not your preferred way of communicating but maybe having the call come in to you could help. Worth a try - getsupport@sane.org

Wish I had your faith @Jynx i got nothing. Nothing at all. laying in bed in tears shaking. Everything is spinning and my heart is pounding.
maybe i will email them. If I email them some details that would make a phone call easier too, not having to explain everything

@Bow I got enough for us both right now.

I think you should! Hopefully it will mean you have someone getting in touch with you to check in.

I hope you can get some sleep tonight hun, and don't hesitate to reach out to a crisis service if things get hairy. I'm off for now, but I'll chat to you tomorrow 💜

Think of you on this hard day @Bow