My Mosaic

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Thanks @Bow that made me all warm inside. I appreciate you as well!

Hope you get some rest, and the pain eases off soon. I'll chat to you next week. Be gentle with yourself hun 💜

Hoping you feel a bit better today @Bow

Sending 💜💜

Hey @Snowie

I’m not as unwell as yesterday, but still not feeling great.
I had to do the lawns this morning. I had been dreading it, been looking at the them the last couple of days and knew mum would ask any day. I got up this morning and it was one of the first things she said to me. I swore inside. Mornings are always hard. I never feel well. I had my one glass of oj and hoped that it would pick me up a bit.
It took a while, many stops for a break, but I managed to get them done. I did drink some water, that made me feel really sick though.
ive since had a lay on my spikey mat, had a shower and now I am not moving off my bed for the rest of the day. I’m beat.
mum has no idea where things are at for me. So couldn’t really say no.
sigh.

how are you today hon?

Well done on getting the lawns done @Bow That is a huge accomplishment considering how you are feeling at the moment.

Does your supporting team know how bad things are?

I know you don't want to worry your mum hon, but maybe she needs to know a bit more. However I can understand the not wanting to say much. I try and keep things from hubby too.

I hope resting this afternoon helps a little. Do you like watching the tennis?

I am ok I guess. Just missing my supports but there is nothing I can do about it.

I think my team mostly know how I am feeling @Snowie @maybe not quite how bad though. I think most of them would be horrified by me doing the lawns. But oh well. I do probably need to tell them though.

yeah I can’t tell mum.

im not a fan of watching sport @Snowie none of it really.

im sorry your missing you supports. Do you have an appointment booked for when they return?

It might be wise to tell them @Bow but I can understand how hard that is. It is like we admitting to ourselves that things are getting worse. So hard to do at times.

What do you like watching on tv? I always seem to have it on even if it is just background noise.

Still got another 2 weeks to go until my appt. with my psych. We tried to put things in place before the break so I would have at least have some support. I will admit that is has been hard without both of them.

Yeah I will write some stuff down and let my supports know this week. I have bloods done on Tuesday and my gp Wednesday for results- things may get taken out of my hands then anyways @Snowie and I also see my psych Wednesday and pdoc Friday.

I don’t watch too much free to air tv. Neighbours and home and away. A couple of seasonal shows too. But there ain’t much on at the moment. I do watch some Netflix though.

I guess the only way to get that help from our supports is to let them know what is happening @Bow I always find writing it down beforehand more helpful. It can be a struggle to say it out loud at times.

I have been watching the cricket the last few nights and of course the big bang theory.

Netflix has some good movies. Hoping they release a few more tv series on there.

I wrote down notes last night to give to my support worker today when she came to visit. I had it next to me when she came. But I didn’t end up giving it to her 😩

I did tell her some bits and pieces, but I didn’t tell her everything. Didn’t manage to tell her all the bad.

@Bow sounds like you regret not being able to be fully open in this appt?

It's not easy to do hun, give yourself a break. Maybe you could bring the note with you next time?