Need to vent

I feel so sick in my stomach @Owlunar @MDT

@@thanks for your support.
I can't eat I feel sick

wow hugs my sister @BlueBay

Oh now hubby thinks I should stay and try the registers and see how I go

@Shaz51 @MDT @Owlunar @BPDSurvivor @Faith-and-Hope

I just got a message from a friend that works on registers. She said all register girls have been talking about what happened and making assumptions as to what happened and why I left. Great!!!!

I want to go away. I want to hide away.
My friend said it's bullying and I should take it further.
I hate confrontations.
my elbow is sore. I don't know what I've done but I need to rest it snd no heavy lifting

That sounds super tough @BlueBay. I can understand wanting to run and hide when there's been a difficult situation, assumptions and you're worried about what'll happen next. That anxiety and fear can feel really uncomfortable to sit with too. Wishing you the strength and courage to do what's right for you, whatever that might be. Take care 💙

Bullying - yes @BlueBay - it does seem like that

I know you hate confrontation - I think most people do.

You never had the chance to stand up to your abusers - ask yourself if you want these ******* on your mind forever too

Think about it - we all need to stand up for ourselves and therefore others - I would stand up for you

But in the end - it's your choice

Dec💜💙

Hey @BlueBay ,

Sorry your morning didn't go according to plan.

In hindsight, do you think the junior supervisor said what he/she did because it was a personal attack at you, or that he/she was stressed and was not aware of your late start?

I don't know your workplace, but I do know what it's like when there's a lot of work and a breakdown in communication. Ive had times when I get angry because I haven't been told something, but in the end, it was not their intention - it was simply a break in communication.

Ive read research papers which conclude that people with BPD read neutral expressions or comments as 'anger' or 'extreme disapproval'. What are your thoughts on this?

@BlueBay , you've wanted to be trained at the registers. Here's your chance. As a side note, if you really have to leave, leave once you've been trained! The more skills you have, the higher the chance of re-employment?

Good luck. I'm not going to spell out my thoughts.

Happy to answer any of your questions though!

BPDSurvivor

Hi,

Adding to my last post, if anyone is interested, you can do a quick search on BPD and 'anger bias'. Very interesting research.

Some research conclude that it is a deficit in reading emotions, while others flip it to say it is 'enhanced emotional recognition'... whatever it is, it all comes down to emotional instability and an anger bias.

@BlueBay @Owlunar @TideisTurning @Shaz51

BPDSurvivor

Hi @BPDSurvivor

The supervisor was well aware that I was coming in late. She had no right to ask questions about my appt.

in regard to this there was no lack of communication. And looking back the supervisor that took my call and said ok to been late didn't even back me up. When the other girl had a go at me she was standing behind me heard the conversation but didn't say "hang on I called earlier"

ive had a bit of time to think about it. I think I'll go in and be trained on the registers and still be aware of how I get treated. If it's still the same then I'll leave.
im very anxious about going in tomorrow. Feel sick and not interested in food

I'm not sure what to think about the research paper. Msybe I do read into things very angrily and personal.
I have enjoyed today not been at work. Enjoyed a coffee this morning alone at the beach sitting in the rocks. Now im

ay the park with my daughter snd littke A.
thanks for your support @BPDSurvivor @Owlunar @TideisTurning @MDT @Shaz51

Hey @MDT

two more emails tonight telling me I didn't get jobs I applied for.
I'm so screwed. I'm hating this job hunting shit. The pressure of searching is too much.
I can't deal with this anymore.
I'm so over it.