Need to vent

Just an add on to the above - I was too scared to tell you all

I was trying really hard but I feel now I've failed snd need help

Sometimes we need to listen to our own body snd mind. We are the best judge. My doctor isn't me. He has no idea how I'm feeling or how hard it is at hime. Although I have mentioned it to him many times but don't get any help.
maybe my doctor doesn't know how to help me anymore. I'm not sure.

Hey @BlueBay ,

Thanks for your honesty. I can see where both sides are coming from.

It is true when the dr said the meds won't fix you. You may be on meds for life but they act only as a bandaid for the real pain deep down. Unless you couple meds with talking therapy, it's very hard to get out of current unhelpful thinking patterns.

I think getting off the meds for a while will allow you to see what you really need. While you are on meds, it's probably keeping you at a level where you don't need the real help for BPD. Without the meds, you may realise your real need and seek that which will support a holistic recovery.

To be honest, meds played a part in my recovery, but ultimately, it wasn't the medication that did the work, but the therapies. Meds prepared my body to be able to endure the therapy sessions. ie, gave me sleep so I could concentrate on recovery; raised my mood to a certain extent so I could get out of bed.

So in a way, I'm happy you're having a med-free time. I just also hope the very same doctor who told you you don't need medication is also finding ways to support your mental health. I wouldn't agree with taking you off meds then leaving you to sink.

Hope this makes sense,

BPDSurvivor

Hi @BPDSurvivor

you're right reg meds. I know they just keep you balanced. But at the end of the day the I am the one that has to do the hard work. Through regular therapy and practice.

my psych won't be happy about my doctor not wanting to give me a script. I'm sure he'll write me up a script. But then I think do I just wait a bit longer and see how I go without.

my GP has been supportive but at times I feel he doesn't get it. He does not understand BPD.

Hi @BlueBay ,

Anyone can write a script, and ultimately, it's up to you whether to take it or not. Each specialist has their own speciality.

- GPs have a general understanding (hence not BPD specific)

- Psychiatrists specialise in meds to treat mental health related conditions (hence they more readily write scripts)

- Psychologists specialise in developing strategies to promote the effective functioning of people (hence cannot provide scripts)

So really, a holistic approach is required. You know what has helped and what hasn't helped. Monitor your own mental health to determine whether meds will be helpful.

If you feel you are 'low' continuously, perhaps anti-depressants will help.

If you observe that you get 'low' because of an event/situation/circumstance, meds will not help. This is where talking therapy is key. After all, would you really want to take more meds than you need particularly if you have co-morbities that are affecting your MH?

Continue to consult your team to determine the best course of action.

I hope you find treatments for what you need. It's out there. Just need to find it.

BPDSurvivor

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Right now I want to go away

far away

I'm over it

hubby picking on the stupidest things like the cups not in order in cupboard

or making remarks about house mess everywhere

which by the way it's not messy. Just few toys around. It's not a display home and we have lots of people in a small house

does it really matter how the cups are

im trying hard to not answer back

I need to go in snother room

I want to just be alone

just for a few minutes

I would love hodpital agsin

I'm really tired exhausted

I'm emotional because I'm tired

why can't someone just do something for me

di this do that OMG

im sorry I needed to vent

good he's gone for a walk

just need to get little A to sleep

that's daughters job

why can't life just be easier

Here with you @BlueBay . Sounds really frustrating and exhausting, I hope you get some rest and respite tonight

Hi @Jynx

Thanks for being here. But things are not good.

I'm struggling to relax. I'm feeling desperate

things at the moment are desperate

financially going downhill very very fast

Desperate times

that's it I'll need a full time job now

I can't think

I'm crying

I wish I wasn't around anymore to deal with sll this stress worry and hardship 😢😢

@BlueBay I'm so sorry. Honestly I believe financial distress and how it impacts mental health really should be talked about more, because it affects everything.

Try to be gentle with yourself, none of it is your fault - the system is unfair, especially on those of us with mental health issues. I hope you're able to reach out for some support as needed

Hi @BlueBay

Everything is on top of you right now - I hear you - and Huffnpuff is huffing and puffing again - phew - I guess he is feeling the stress of the Crowded House too - but the cups not being in order- sheesh! I guess he can be told that is his special job and to fix it himself

Anyway - hospital won't help - you will be unhappy when you get there and unhappy when you come home - that's Transitional Ambivalence and BPD talking so try and let that go

What would you like someone to do for you? We can only listen and suggest - and you can vent all you like with no need to apologise

Take some deep breaths and find a spot where you can be alone - it is rough with so many people living in a small house

Dec