Need to vent

I'm guessing she's hoping for me to be admitted soon but it could take a few days to a few weeks. I could email her but not sure what to ask. ???

@Shaz51

just ask her for some steps to take over the next week to help you my @BlueBay , she could give you some tips and suggestions to help you xoxxo

Hi @BlueBay ,

I can see the dilemma. It's a challenging one. You know yourself best.

From my experience, inpatient units didn't do me any good (they were detrimental in fact), but PARCs helped a lot.

Inpatient units can give a bit of respite, but as you said, you can then become reliant on these restrictive measures and feel you 'need' to be looked after. I'm not sure if that rings true?

Whatever it is, we're here 🙂

Hello @BlueBay I have nothing useful to add I'm sorry but I'm here with you and sending some love. I am sure you will make the right decision for YOU hun 🌷🙏❣️

Hi @BlueBay ,

Thanks for posting, I can see you are so well supported in working through some intense feelings tonight through our community which is so encouraging and wonderful to see.

Just dropping a reply from me too as I can see its been a difficult evening. It can be challenging to manage the urge to SH and just letting you know if you're still experiencing this feelings tonight or just need a chat you can always get in touch with SCBS or Lifeline. It’s important you are able to stay safe, if you require urgent assistance you can also dial 000.

Hoping you are well and here supporting you with our entire community.

Kindest regards,

Otter

Thanks @Otter
I struggle so much with making decisions. I'm not strong enough to decide for myself. I'm not able to see what I need in my life

my life is so scattered with negative thoughts and visions at the moment

I dread days like this

waking up with the thoughts they are so negative

I don't know anymore

I'm not strong like others

I feel like I'm a child still a victim

I can't fight this anymore

these thoughts these things in my head

I wish I was different I wish I had more courage and strength

I'm tired I'm struggling

I don't have answers anymore

I don't have anything to give to anyone anymore

im just a stupid dumb person who has nothing to give

@BlueBay 😔💞

(((( @BlueBay 💕🌷))))

Hi @BlueBay

I have mentioned before that you need to start making decisions for yourself - this is the only way to learn how and gain the strength with experience. It's not easy but the only way.

It's true that you are overwhelmed with negative thoughts - and self-harm - please don't do that - it only distracts you for a short while and reinforces your negative beliefs in yourself and you don't need to do this

Forget about other people's opinions and trust your own. Consider the pros and cons about going to hospital - I know it's a hard choice - if you truly need to be cared for - maybe that will help in the short term - however

In the past you have gone there and then thought it was not the place for you and agonised about leaving and when you get home you wish you were back there - so - does this really help? I am asking you what you think - not what your doctor or your psych thinks -

Four weeks is a long time between visits with your psych when you are so fragile. I agree you are fragile - life has thrown several curved-balls at all of us during the last 16 months and you have been affected by all of this a little more than most I think

True - life isn't easy but time away from work or even thinking about it could help. You never like your job and what happens there - this was how it was at your previous pharmacy and then at the supermarket and now at the current pharmacy. I understand your health issues and this is what needs to be dealt with first - stress makes health issues worse - I know this from my own adventures through loss and divorce.

There are many things in your life that need sorting out. I can see this clearly - if you can change things then change them - if you can't - then learn to accept them

You can do this - it's just easier to concentrate on the negatives because this is what you do - I believe you can learn different ways and it isn't easy - it is better in the long run

So - my conclusion is that if you take a short break in hospital and concentrate on accepting your life as it is and taking the time out from working to recoup your health then do this - and do it quickly and once your decision is make then stick to it without over-thinking.

Take some steps without bothering about other people's opinions - you know what you need yourself - I really believe that you can change your circumstances for the better

Dec

I've just lost my job because I was sick too often