Need to vent

❤❤❤❤❤ @BlueBay

I am sorry and I totally understand that @BlueBay

Maybe it's for the best - you do need to take your psyche's advice about not working or looking for work for a while and get your health under control - it's a case of dealing with the most important issue first and what is life without your healtih?

But I am surprised that you could be sacked because you are sick. If you feel up to it you could challenge that - maybe Centrelink could help with that. I know your husband earns to much for you to have disability.

And of course it is easy to see the way out when we are not in the middle of it - I know this is hard but the bottom line is that your health is your priorty

Dec

hi @Owlunar @Shaz51 i emailed my psychologist who is going to call me this afternoon for a phone consult

i also emailed my new psychiatrist and the receptionist just called me - she is calling the hospital to ask for an urgent bed for me to go in and an appt to see my psych next thursday. i do have a good support team now and very grateful for it.

work - yes it was a shock; i have never ever been sacked, made redundant yes, but never sacked because i had too many days off. i looked back at my diary and i had 4 days off in 3 months. all those times i had medical certificates and one of those i was in hospital with diverticulitis and of course the last one being covid tested and had to stay isolated. i don't understand what they wanted me to do - go to work sick. i didn't have time off just for the fun of it; i still went to work even though some days i did dread going in. but i still worked hard and did my job.

i think things happen for a reason. this was an outlet for me to go to hosptial. it's giving me more time now to get better physically and mentally and look for work. But in saying that i am even thinking sewing baby blankets and selling them on line.

but for today and the next few weeks - i am not going to think of anything except me getting better.

thank you @Owlunar @Shaz51 for your replies, i do take on board what you've said. I think now it is clear that my mind has been made and i will def go into hospital. i need a break and to just put things into perspective of what i want. it's time i start doing more for me. and i will talk to the boys and they will have to help us out and pay weekly to help out. right now i can't even think about selling or looking. maybe in a few months i can, but right now i need to slow my mind down and do one simple thing at a time.

so for now, i am going to go to bed and rest my mind for a little. hubby called earlier as he was worried but i am okay now.

Hi again @BlueBay

Yes @BlueBay - I think you do need to have time to yourself to put things into perspective. I would like you to do one small thing for me

Write this on a piece of paper and keep it handy - refer to it from time to time when you are uncertain

Write: the main thing I need to do right now is to find a way to keep things in perspective - nothing else matters

And keep this first and foremost in your mind - having one main thing is important and will help you not to become confused

I'm sorry you lost your job - but maybe it's for the best so you need time to get many things sorted out - having things in perspective is number one - things will get better if you don't get distracted about this

I was really glad to read your post - I was concerned

Dec

@Owlunar @Shaz51 @Anastasia @Emelia8

Ive got a bed tomorrow. I'm m happy to be going now. Hubby is worried about me so he's coming home early tiday and he'll take tomorrow off. Had to cancel and reschedule some appointments but it's all ok.

@BlueBay 🙏🌷💕

Well done @BlueBay I think its the correct decision. Really good you got a hospital bed so quickly. 😊💞

I'm so scared anxious about the future

where go I look for a job

I'm unemployed - that hurts

who will give me a job at 56

@Emelia8 @Anastasia @Owlunar @Shaz51 @saltandpepper @MDT

Hi @BlueBay

I'm really glad you are going into hospital today - I hope you really get the break you need and give yourself time to sort out your priorities

Try and remember your health and that is your most important issue. I think you realise that but you are already distracted with the thought of getting another job and this is already causing you to short-circuit - not good and fear is going to make it worse

How can you deal with the future before it gets here? Actually we all have to plan but there is nothing you can do about a job right now. I remember before you got this job you were going to take the time to sort your health out first but you didn't give yourself time to do this. What a pity - how much stress you have had since then - this is really sad

I know it is devastating to be made redundant and get sacked - how rotten. We can't change the past though - only learn though it's circumstances

Try and live in the moment for the time being. Your fear is making everything worse. I know it is really hard for you to control your emotions but to get better you need to at least ease some of them. I hope you can do this

I wish the best for you. Try and be kind to yourself. Would you be so hard on anyone else - I don't think so - you are a kind and supportive person.

Go easy on yourself and get the most out of this break you know you need so much

Dec

Hi my friends

@Owlunar @Emelia8 @Anastasia @Shaz51 @MDT @saltandpepper abd others

day one wasn't a great day.

1. I arrived at reception to be admitted. Receptionist just pointed to where I had to go instead of walking me to the ward. I got lost along the way and was getting overwhelmed. Even though I know the hospital the mental health ward is a completely new building so I didn't know how to get there.
2. The nurse who admitted me didn't show me around the new ward.
3. Urine sample she left on table all afternoon until night nurse saw it and I had to do another one.
4. I had to ask another nurse where do I make coffee. She then showed me around the whole ward.
5 today my lunch dessert was frozen!! So I told the kitchen lady who collected my tray. She said that wasn't good enough.

the nurse unit manager snd program co-ordinator who both know me for years came to say hi. I told them my issues and said it's ok for me because I know the staff and familiar with hodpital but it's not good for a new patient who's never been here before. They would feel totally lost snd overwhelmed. The nurse manager thanked me for my feedback on issues and she will sort it out.

I've been in my room a lot sleeping and knitting.

hubby just arrived so I'm going now for a coffee.