My only safe place aka my fortress

I'm glad you're still around @Emelia8

Wish we could work things out

@NatureLover hope you enjoyed your walk in the sun, need your nap is restful.

I ah ...i got this under control .

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@Lee71 wrote:

And enjoy your nap when you get home.

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Hi Lee, thanks. 🙂

I am wondering if you felt able to share your colour at all, this week...no worries if you don't want to. I don't think much has changed for you, so I can imagine what it might be. 💔

@Lee71

@NatureLover

That's a good thing that you lay down and recharge and process and deal with things like that, it probably is some sort of meditation. And I know that works well for a lot of people.

Hmm as for my colour you haven't been asking that, we've been using songs, which isn't a bad thing, I like hearing the songs you like , so as for colour I'm heading right for the top.

So may be checking in regularly more than usual I don't know .

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@Lee71 wrote:

That's a good thing that you lay down and recharge and process and deal with things like that, it probably is some sort of meditation. And I know that works well for a lot of people.

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'Processing things' - that's a good way to describe it, thank you. I never know how to describe it...'meditation' means something slightly different, I think, but most people know what meditation is, so I've just been saying that to most people. I wanted to describe it to you properly, though, as we are straight up.

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@Lee71 wrote:

Hmm as for my colour you haven't been asking that, we've been using songs, which isn't a bad thing, I like hearing the songs you like , so as for colour I'm heading right for the top.

So may be checking in regularly more than usual I don't know .

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I tried not to ask your colour last week as you said you didn't want to talk about how you were, last week...I am happy to stick with songs if you prefer that.

I know you find it helpful to check in here more when you're feeling worse...but I trust you to know when to contact your Chat or text your therapist if your colour gets too high. 'Right for the top' isn't at all good, Lee... 😞

@Lee71

@NatureLover yes we are straight up with each other and I like that about our friendship.

Songs or colours doesn't matter either way right now

Dear @Lee71 😊💖

Please believe me when I tell you that there is nothing to work out. You did nothing wrong. Its me. I'm faulty goods, and I seem to prove my knockers right every time I stuff up. They're right you know ... I'm not safe to be around. So it is for your protection that I have placed a self imposed muzzle on myself. I like spending time here in your Fortress. I feel safe here. I like both your's and @NatureLover company. I respect and admire both of you a great deal. So ... no Lee ... there is nothing to work out. I've already done that, and find myself to be a failure. I just cannot seem to do anything right.

I'm glad you liked the pink rose I left for you last night. Its beautiful isnt it? My little niece Emma was very much a tomboy the majority of time. Probably understandable with 2 older brothers and her family living on a farm. But then she could also be a sweet gentle little princess ... delicate, fragile, and a real little girl. She loved pink, it was her favourite colour.

Emelia 😔🌸

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@Lee71 wrote:

@NatureLover yes we are straight up with each other and I like that about our friendship.

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Me too 🙂

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@Lee71 wrote:

Songs or colours doesn't matter either way right now

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The only thing you need to be aware of, though, is if you ever mention to me that you're at red level on the colour chart, I will have to call a Moderator. I know you're not there right now, but I hope you'll get some help before you ever get to that point.

Sending you a warm hug, my dear friend...

@Lee71

@Emelia8 you haven't screwed up anything. I'mdamaged goods too also , I think we all are in some way. I'm glad you feel safe in this fortress, please don't muzzle yourself, i/we like talking to you and it may help a lot right now.

@NatureLover or my friend I just won't mention it, which is not h ow we are , we've always been straight up.

I don't want to talk to a mod, I don't think it will help.