The safe room- somewhere to just come and sit.... offload... feel supported

So over feeling this way

Hey @Former-Member I have just sent you an email to check in.

formaggio

Hi @formaggio,

We are safe babydragon retreated again and her partner is near by she's just having a hard time and there is no professional help here for us

had a great day today but may have pushed myself to hard to be back to normal again as tonight Im feeling mentally not ok again its in terms of feeling anxcious,worked up,worried thoughts,I tried hard today and put somewhat a brave face on to make things seem normal now I find Im putting anxiety on myself again,councilling appointment is thankfully not too far away but yeh I tried today to make myself go on as normal for a bit ,still working on an emotional foundation to keep myself grounded

Love doesnt Last for those who need it,Love doesnt stay for those who want it,been sitting here for a bit thinking something I shouldnt think and wondering should I try to send you a message or have you forgotten what we had already? back to being alone

I dont know If Ill be married one day ,I feel as if Ive lost you before I found you,Ive left you waiting too long,Ive kept you waiting too long too long for us to meet,I never should have kept you waiting ,when I do want to be with you and yet I didnt show up to see you when you needed me and when we wanted to meet Im sorry ,Sorry for what Ive put you through.

lost Angel needs to calm down,sit,rest breathe,chillout,stop stressing,take a break,not overthink,not feel bad,not feel hurt or overly responsible but responsible enough ,sense of self needs to improove so that I can remember how to be kind again,rest again,treat self and others with respect again,but of course everything Lost Angel wants takes time and some things will take more time than others being so negative needs to stop it drives lost angel and those around her angry ,upset but somehow some people still stay despite their hurt feelings and I geuss lost angel needs to stay for herself too and stay for those who stay with her,lost angel you need to believe in yourself again, you need to relax anxiety and depression need to stop,fear needs to stop and be replaced with kindess and love,kind good thoughts no wonder you have felt lost you need to find the good and cling to the good not cling to the bad cause the good things and good thoughts and good people help if only youd let all the good things help so then you can be calm and settled and relaxed,why let the negative side win what does it do but hurt everything? let the good side win ,let Love win

Just a self aware thought, I learn when I decide to learn as I can be very stubborn about learning what I mean is people can tell me the truth or what I should learn or understand but its better when I decide to learn myself then have time and space to learn without the extra distraction or expectaions of others,just a self observation if people keep at you with what they see or think they see you need to learn then that doesnt exactly help,no reflection on anyone on forums just a self aware thought and observation of self ,how I feel about learning and how I learn in general

today I ended up feeling very frustrated and just feeling over things,like really over things mainly my negative side of emotions,and negative thoughts unfortunetly I did think today that I wanted to shut down emotionally more or less, internal self critic ect thoughts such as wanting to give up on myself,this was while driving around town trying to find a place to park to do easter shopping when all I wanted to do was stay at home but of course the shops are shut tomorow so had to go out today even though didnt feel like it also cause some of my personal emotional issues where dawning on my conceince,things to do with my recent behaviour and things like that,maybe a bit of guilt ect

Im thinking about your kisses of kissing you and how it felt when we kissed out wet lips touching eachother mmm baby our tounges where as one we where intertwined in a comftable position our mouths where full of warmth and passion,I so want to kiss you right now I so want to see you again I want to see you again feel you again your warmth your mouth your lips soft and moist and warm I wish I could kiss you right now or meet you again tomorow and kiss you agagin and and again Im craving your kisses the feel of your on my mouth theres a desire to kiss you right now thinking about remmembering it the momment when it seemed like the whole the stopped and I could hear was the music in the background,lost in your embrace lost in our own world far away from everything else and just feeling like time stopped and it was just you and just me together,hugging kissing and feeling all those warm special feelings spending time together in a beautifull momment everything changed you changed me for the better you made me stronger and wiser you gave confidence and resurance your warmth your character,I feel like ever since we kissed we part of eachother wher intertwined by the beautifull moments we shared together,desire of the mind of the heart and of the soul your part of me now,I can still feel you only you,I can still see you and only you,I f you where with me right now I would hug you and kiss you never let me go please never let me go ,I trust you I will continue to trust you my source of strength and my source of affection safe in your arms and your arms only Im comitted to you and only you,Im safe with you I feel protected with you,your giving me something that no one else has ever given your giving me freedom,your giving all that you can give of yourself and I want to do the same for you,Im so used to looking out for others but finally I have someone who cares and listens and understands me as an individual someone who looks after me protects me,in ways others havnt so thank you thankyou for giving me this chance to feel and not have to think not have to worry cause you protect me and look out for my wellbeing your with me and I want you to stay with me,I want to be my partner in crime,my ride or die your Joker and Im your Harley I need you ,I want you ,I like you,You want me,You like me and you need me too together we make a wonderfull team of kindred pirits we are differnet yet the same thank you for being my man,Im your babe xxxxxxx