The safe room- somewhere to just come and sit.... offload... feel supported

Oh dear @Bow ... I dont know what to say, as words fail me. But I feel your intense pain, and felt a need to respond in some manner.

I guess I wanted you to know that I hear you, I care very much about what you are going through, and you are not alone in spirit.

I wish I could do or suggest something to help, as your post breaks my heart. But all I have, are a few words on a page. 😔🌺

Emelia 💓

Hi @Bow,

I can hear that today is a particularly difficult for you. Thank you for sharing your struggle with us and reaching out for support - that shows a great amount of strength. We are here for you and you don't have to go through this alone.

Warmest regards,

SRae

I would really like to talk to you simply because I miss talking to you,barely got anything done today which felt a bit like a waste of time,I keep hearing the wind still blowing outside at times which is making me think of a BOb Dylan Song called times they are a changin or maybe the sond from Mary poppins winds in the east mist coming in like something is brewing about to begin,would I be just chasing you again like the wind if I try to contact you again or are you too tired from possibly a long day at work to talk on the phone strange to feel both connected to some people yet still isolated from other people at the same time but I geuss life is pretty strange sometimes,honestly what would I like to say to you when we do finally talk again? probly a happy/Brave face of Im going fine how are you maybe in a way to deflect attention from myself which i feel im trying to seek at the momment strange how the weather can match your mood my thoughts feel blustery like the wind silence is sometimes my language even when Id like nothing more than to just speak with you maybe for 20 minutes it doesnt have to be for hours and I assure you that Im not following you around my whole life but that doesnt mean I dont want you to simply stilll be in my life do you miss me too ?cause if you did then I thought we would have talked properly by now,where are you dear friend ? am I in your way now? or is it because you feel youve scarificed for me and maybe it seems to you that I havnt done the same for you? please speak to me soon or else it will seem as though I am chasing you just like the blustery wind outside ,maybe I did something to hurt you? and if I have please tell me? cause honestly you did do something that hurt me too or are you just sick of trying to give effort to me cause it doesnt seem fair or something,I dont know what else to say except please stay

Hi @LostAngel

Am around for a little while if you need a chat or someone just to sit with you.

💜💜

Thanks @Emelia8 and @Former-Member

don’t know what else to say.

Yeah it makes sense @LostAngel

Must be a hard situation to be in.

am I scared? scared of not having control? control over my life? if someone loves me does that mean Im giving control of myself to them?scared of being unwanted? scared of being ignored?

@LostAngel hoping you are ok💜💜

snowie im ok now it just hasnt been a good day Ive lashed out quite a bit at those around me including on the forums apologies