The safe room- somewhere to just come and sit.... offload... feel supported

@Appleblossom

hello,

Your name I find is very calming but also awakens the senses. Spring has come, a new beginning. Are the blossoms white or pink, the perfume of the flowers.
As you said, very fragile....but also the start of new life and the bearer of fruit.

i do find the lay out of the forum to be 'all over the place' boxes everywhere and colourful headings. When I first joined I was trying to find a heading that said 'Bipolar' and then to find under that heading the topics/conversations and threads to go with that.

like a book, with chapters etc.

I have found some peace though finding people that are like me. It is really good to know I am not alone. Also to be able to communicate and help others too.

Thank you for sharing and caring 🌸

hello and hugs @Maggie , @Snowie , @Appleblossom , @Lostandalone , @Former-Member

our @Appleblossom is the best @Former-Member

she was here for me when i came here 5 years ago

Truly wish I was @Former-Member

Dear @Shaz51

I remember @PeppiPatty introduced us. Love her. I had only been posting for a few months. You have been there for almost everyone Shazzy.

Thank you @Former-Member Eventually I bought a carpet rose called Appleblossom. They petals are often pinkish with white edges. Might vary.

Choosing names can have many effects and be empowering. I was very uncertain at first, but have grown to identify with it strongly. It was a good choice for me, even if I felt low it kept me tied to something that had promise.

Cheers

@Former-Member glad you are

I can't sleep. Didn't want to take sleeper but anxiety will

only override.

im sick of being accused of cheating when I'm not. It's been going on repeat for years. It's making me uncomfortable. I believe I may have bipolar. Just have to wait for appointment. I'm tired of fighting to keep it all going. I'm always the strong one. But this worries me. Am i in another abusive rsp? I think it's getting too much. To help a P who can't seem to help themselves yet relies on me. I'm confused. It's messing me around. I don't want to be the person always managing. The put downs hurt or mean words when he drinks. I feel very alone. And have no one even friends to talk too anymore. 😞

I’ve pulled back and shut down the last couple of days. I simple don’t care anymore. I find myself wandering off in my thoughts and thinking about stuff. I’ve gotten up and gone walking in the middle of the night, just don’t care. I see a car and wonder what it would be like, would it stop. I walk by the waters edge and want to walk in and just take it in and sink. Would it all be enough

I grieve the life that I dreamed of but never got to live. Instead I’m stuck with this one. Disappointment, shame, a shattered heart and daily pain. My body hurts and I’m tired. I’ve asked when enough will be enough, hit after hit, blow after blow.

@Former-Member 💙💙💙

Thank you @Dockers6 @Maggie @Bow

I put myself to bed at 4.30am. Slept. Up again. Sleeper did relax.
Im pretty wary of my situation. He even accuses me of spending too much time talking to my online groups. When I talk to him all day and help him. Quite unfair. Especially when he said I only have one real friend in RL. One is better then none. But I don't trouble her anymore with my problems.