Trying to stay Sane

Just got home with my little Holly. @Anastasia She's a mess poor baby. But seems okay, wanting to go and check all her usual beds and resting spots.

The news was not as good as we'd hoped. They removed part of the lump in her neck, but it was an infiltrating lipoma and had fingers spreading far and wide. Including enveloping the trachea and nerves etc. But he took out as much as he could and it should relieve the pressure on her breathing etc. The vet also removed another lump from her under tummy which was also getting quite large. It was a simple op, and came out in its entirety, it wasnt an infiltrating type.

So she is now resting in her little bed here in the study. At least she is okay enough. And no major damage was done in the process of attempting to remove as much of the lipoma as possible. Just have to hope that it doesnt regrow to any large extent from whats still remaining. If it does, he says he wont be able to do anything .. that it would be an entwined mess.

So mixed feelings around it all ... at least I still have my baby girl.

I've tagged you a bit late for a quiet drink by the pool I suspect, as you may well be getting ready for dinner out.

Emelia 🌺🐶

Oh sweetheart I'm so sorry. Yes being pulled in a hurry up direction to leave...I'd much rather a quiet drink and chat with you right now. I hope you're ok? I'm glad she's home and resting @Emelia8

Gosh life is full of curve balls from every angle at the moment. I love you more my sweet friend 🐕🐾🌷💐💞

Its okay @Anastasia ... I had hoped it wasnt an infiltrating type, but we both suspected it may be. Also her liver blood tests prior to surgery indicated some mild issue. So more tests in a month or so, which will hopefully rule out anything major. Livers can go up and down a bit. The vet also gave her a tooth clean and check. Her back teeth have always been really good and she has lots of chewy bones to keep them that way. But her front teeth have been a bit of a problem. He said a couple of her little front teeth were not good and so he removed them. I was aware this may be the case, so no real surprise there. She has lovely clean teeth now anyway. So the poor little girl has been through the mill. A check up at the vets in 7 days and a stack of stitches removed in 10 days time. I havent even counted the number of stitches, there are so many of them.

Yeah the old curve balls ... not great are they? But we just have to take them in our stride I guess.

Sorry I missed a chance to chat before you head out for dinner. Perhaps I can catch you later this evening upon your return. I'm thinking you must head home tomorrow ... a shame the holiday is nearly over, but also a relief for you to be back home. If you are driving home tomorrow ... please take care on the road, and travel safe.

Love you more 🤗💕

Emelia 🌸

Poor Holly, please give her a big pat from Auntie Eve and Peter bird @Emelia8

Bigger hug for you dear sweet Em 💖🤗

Sorry I've been offline. We played Uno and had cheese cake. Was lovely until my oldest disregarded my request to stay home so as not to leave his brother on his own. As you know I jumped hoops to get my boy a carer for most of the day for the 5 days. I asked his brother to be there for him after work and tonight. He decided to ignore my request twice. Once to go to a friend's mid week and then tonight just to go out. I'm so angry. It spoiled our night. It spoiled the other night when I learned he'd gone elsewhere after work. My oldest isn't the one on the phone with his brother till early hours keeping his brother company as he's home alone, scared, hallucinating, and lonely. Nor does he have to deal with the emotional roller coaster of the experience around it.

I have always done everything for son 2 and he does nothing in return. My boy can be fine one minute and Si the next. So my oldest used the excuse that his brother was fine to leave alone. I guess some would think I'm an ah mother for expecting my oldest to keep his brother company for 5 nights in this instance. Maybe I ask too much? I don't think do. I have always put their needs first and for the first time it was my turn to ask for help, again, for 5 bloody days!

Sorry to vent @Emelia8 I'm sad that

my first holiday ever with bf and potentially my last ever with my Dad, and my oldest couldn't hang around home for 5 nights!!!!. Angry, disappointed, let down to name a few.

Yes we head home after breakfast tomorrow so having a last bath and trying to calm down enough to hopefully get some sleep tonight.

How is your baby? How are you? I suspect you may already be in bed after such an emotional day. If you are I hope that you have a.blissful night to catch up.on.lost sleep from tending to Holly for the last couple. Love you Em and thanks for.listenkng xox

Oh @Anastasia 😔💕

No, it was not asking too much for your elder son to remain home for his brother. I fully understand your disappointment, anger and feelings of having been so badly let down. And so sorry it has spoiled your last night away.

I dont know what to say really. I know I feel heartbroken for you that you have not been able to relax and enjoy this rare chance of a short getaway with loved ones.

Safe travels home today, and talk again soon dear friend.

All my love and a big squeezy hug.

Emelia 💞

Thank you for understanding. I was so upset last night. I so appreciate you. I hope little Holly and you got some sleep?

We are heading off shortly, back home to face the music. Love and hugs @Emelia8 🐾🐕🌷👂💞

It isnt difficult to understand how upset you would have been last night @Anastasia .. and understandably so. 😔🌺

Yes both Holly and I got some decent sleep last night. A bit up and down, with me checking on her regularly, but mostly she seemed okay. Breathing easier than she had been prior to the surgery, despite a lot of swelling in the area. So it should improve more yet. She is naturally very sore, with all her pretty gruesome looking surgical scars and sutures. And looks a bit weird with all the shaved bits from around her neck and cheek. But the hair will grow back and she will be back to the adorably sweet little girl she's always been. Hopefully the lipoma will not regrown from the remaining tumour, or if it does, that it will not become as big or troubling for her. So I desperately hope that she will be with us for at least a few more good years. Even hubby has been very worried about our little girl. Acts big and tough, but a real pushover when it comes to Holly. Except when he loses his temper which sends her scurrying to find a hiding spot.

Okay so you would be on your way home by now. Safe travels. Yes, home to face the music very soon. I am so sorry you were not able to properly enjoy this time away. It seems to have been snippets of wonderfulness, but littered with numerous serious worries from back home. I realise you will be much relieved to be home again. So for that, I'm pleased that you will soon be home.

No doubt you will have lots to catch up on over the weekend and not just the necessary household chores. But I also hope that somewhere along the line you get to have a bit of quiet time as well. All too soon, you're back at work again.

I appreciate you so much @Anastasia ... more than anyone here could fully understand. Please take care. You are such an important and valued person within your family unit, as well as becoming more and more so here as well.

Much love and hugs to you as well.

Emelia 💞🤗

I understand how much you appreciate Myboy @Emelia8 , as I am someone on the forum who feels exactly the same way.

we are blessed to have such a genuine, supportive gift in @Anastasia

@Emelia8 I'm very glad to hear the slight improvements that little Holly is making - I do hope you are coping ok. Those improvements will continue over the coming days. She's at home with you - the best place possible.

I appreciate you very much @Emelia8

WIP 💞💞💖💖

You are so right there @WIP 👍💓😊 we do have a true gift in @Anastasia

Yes I think Holly will be okay. She is plainly very sore and uncomfortable, but seems pretty good otherwise.

I consider you to be a gift to us all here too @WIP 💕🤗 I appreciate you, your support and your positivity (despite the huge hurdles you face) immensely. You are a joy to have around. Always remember ... together we are stronger. 💞

Emelia 🌺🐶