WIPSenior Contributor
Changing meds
Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.
I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.
i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.
i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.
what if this new medication doesn't work either??
