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Changing meds

WIPSenior Contributor15 July 2020, 11:14 am AEST

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor29 June 2021, 12:39 am AEST

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Thank you @outlander and love back to you too. I just read the blog that @Eve7 recommend. Couldn't agree more open dialogue would be amazing. Anyways I need to call it a night. Before I do though, I recall you might ride today. Did you, was it good. Are you good?

If I dodoze please forge me but hopefully I won't x

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outlanderSenior Contributor29 June 2021, 12:41 am AEST

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No, no ride for me today. Wasnt and still dont feel overly well. Hoping tomorrow is abit better. Just took kids down to play with their horses since we're in lockdown and cant do much else. @Anastasia

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor29 June 2021, 12:43 am AEST

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Oh shame @outlander sorry to hear. Yes tomorrow is another day. Hoping you wake feeling much better. Your a sweetheart taking kids to visit horses. They are lucky girls. Night lovely. Dream big and thank you for saying hi 💕

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outlanderSenior Contributor29 June 2021, 12:49 am AEST

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Goodnight @Anastasia hope you sleep well 😴❤

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor03 July 2021, 9:41 am AEST

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@WIP coming in to give you hugs 🤗🤗🤗

Are you ok sweetheart?

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WIPSenior Contributor03 July 2021, 11:03 am AEST

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Hi @Anastasia

Thanks for dropping by with hugs today. I didn't sleep very well and have woken up feeling very down and demotivated, so your hugs are appreciated.

How are you going? And your boy - how's he coping with lockdown?

🤗🦋💙

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor03 July 2021, 11:19 am AEST

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Sorry you didn't sleep well @WIP it really does affect us doesn't it!

Were ok, just plodding along really. His supports that can be are all online so at least that's something 🙏

Just out with him picking up my car from the mechanic xox

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WIPSenior Contributor03 July 2021, 2:05 pm AEST

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Hope the mechanics invoice isn't too expensive @Anastasia

I'm very happy to hear your son can still get support, even though it's via remotely.

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Eve7Senior Contributor03 July 2021, 2:57 pm AEST

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Sending you some hugs along with these flowers @WIP 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

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BPDSurvivorSenior Contributor03 July 2021, 3:14 pm AEST

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Hi @WIP ,

How are you, my dear?

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