Changing meds

Big hugs @WIP I really hope you get the right treatment soon.

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Hello lovely @Anastasia 💖🤗💖🤗💖

Arghhh I'm trying to attach a photo where there is no excess but can't.

They are there @WIP x

@Eve7 x

I can't do this anymore @Anastasia @Eve7

Every day is torture. I cry from the moment I wake up. I don't want to live like this anymore, it's been going on too long and I've tried all sorts of help - nothing works. I just can't

Big gentle hug @WIP it is hard, incredibly hard at times and you are such a beautiful person who does not deserve such pain.

I tried to do something recently and all I succeeded in doing was hurting others. Please stay safe, you’re important and precious. We’re in this together and I won’t leave you alone.

Lots of love for you and Levi

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Thank you dear @Eve7

But there's a huge difference between you and I.

I don't have anyone in my life - I'm all alone. I'm just causing my Mum pain and taking years off her life.

I have little support. I don't matter, no one would notice. I'm the one who is hurting & I don't know how much longer I can do it

Even though I have family and friends @WIP @I often think they’d be better off without me.

Our Mothers would never get over losing us but we need to live for us too. It’s true that depression can be a fatal illness but it’s also true that we can recover.

I care about you honey and I’m here with you on our good days as well as our bad days.

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I'm crying to read your words @Eve7 @WIP

Because I see the pain that my boy lives with, day in day out and my heart breaks for all of you.

It's :pile_of_poo: no other word for it.

Eve is right in what she says about everything. I hope that you can get to a space in your mind where you can hold on to hope L for YOU.

Holding on for others isn't enough.

I do hear you.

Sending an abundance of love, strength and HOPE to you both and cuddles for Levi xox

I have no hope @Eve7 @Anastasia

and decided many, many months ago that the only reason I stay alive is for my Mum.

Ive told my pdoc, psychologist and the new specialist yesterday this.

I don't want to live. I don't live actually, I just exist and Mum is the only reason I'm here.
The pain I go through every day just increases over time.

As soon as Mumnis gone - I'm gone too.

My sister has said she wants Mum up in NSW with her if she has to go into care or gets sick. I'll be gone then too.

I love you so much @WIP

Even on your darkest days I am so grateful to have you in my life. Please never think you're a burden to me or anyone, you are so far from it. 🙏💕

@Eve7 @BPDSurvivor @Bow @saltandpepper

Big gentle hug @WIP I am so sorry that the pain is so bad for you every day. All I can say is I do understand and send you a big loving hug.