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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Hello lovely @Anastasia


How are you feeling today? Any better yet? Don't push yourself to go to work if you aren't well enough - it'll just take you longer to get better if you do.

Yes, been preparing for tomorrow. Trying not to overthink it too much. There's no point worrying until I'm there, but hopefully I'll be ok. I'm still not completely comfortable with this new pdoc, but he said he'd check on me every day, so that's good.

THANK YOU, I'd love you to be in my pocket for when I need. There will be plenty of down time when groups aren't running, and I know I'll get lonely.


Love L & Levi (I'm going to miss him so much!) xx

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I agree @WIP it's just I have a meeting with my boss in the afternoon and it's easier to do it at work 😔 all I can do is ask the Universe to assist and see what happens. I cooked a baked dinner tonight quite incredible really considering how :pile_of_poo: I feel so there's hope yet 🤞

Levi will miss you too but he'll love the fact that you come home in a better place 🐶🐾💕

In your pocket whenever you need✔️

Better go and check on the dinner, love ya L xox

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Thinking of you @WIP 💞🤞🙏💞

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Hi dear @WIP

Thinking of you, and hope all going well.

Emelia 💕

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yes my buddy @WIP hope you have settled in ok? thinking of you tonight

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Hi @Anastasia @Emelia8 @Bow

Thank you for your kind thoughts.
I was admitted late afternoon and have been travelling along ok so far. My back is playing up though and the bed isn't terribly comfortable.
I'm not liking it here, but have to try and be positive about it all.

Wish me luck for hopefully getting some sleep.


💞💞

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Wishing you love and luck @WIP

Considering the road you have travelled on to this point, you can conquer a :pile_of_poo: mattress hun. I'm sorry you're back is playing up, I just asked the Universe to step in and assist in making the situation "lighter" for you ,🤞🙏

Use your relaxation music to help you drift off peacefully. You've got this L x

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Thinking of you tonight @WIP and hoping you get some sleep.

Big hugs

💜💙💜🤗💙💜💙

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Hello @WIP

day 1 ticked off 🙂

How was your sleep? Thinking of you sweets xox

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Hi @Anastasia

Yes, day 1 ticked off ✔️ And closing in on day 2 being ticked off too.

Terrible, terrible nights sleep. So have had headache and back ache for most of the day. Hoping I'm able to adjust and sleep a little better tonight - it's very difficult when the night time nurse staff, check on you every night by flashing a flash light in your room.

Attended group this morning, which was good. The afternoon has dragged though.

I hope you are feeling better today. Do you think you'll need a 2nd round of antibiotics?

💞

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