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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Hi @outlander

How are you going? 💚🧡💙

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Hi beautiful girl,

Did you get a chance to research bars therapy? If so what do you think? First day back today and I was run off my feet. Managed Pilates at lunch and sitting down for the first time since I got home now. Hope you are ok? Love and hugs @WIP 🌹

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Hi lovely lady @Anastasia

Sounds like you've had a busy first day back, but good on you for getting to a Pilates class at lunch time - go girl!

I did research Bar Therapy, and there's a place nearby, however she's out of action till mid May as she's recovering from an operation. That's ok, as I go into hospital next week (yikes!!) and won't be ready to book a session until next month anyway. It's a bit expensive, but I'm going to give it a go based on your feedback.

How's your boy going? You got to see him both days over the weekend, which is great to hear. I sincerely hope he's showing some improvement.

I'm sort of ok. Getting very stressed about my admission next week. I've got an appt with the pdoc tomorrow to ask him many questions I've got about when I'm there and to get a clear understanding of the joint plan we will have regarding my detox off anti anxiety meds.

My sister and niece have been down over the w/e, so that's been a bit emotional and stressful too. I'm looking forward to my nephew coming down, he arrives Thursday I think.

I hope you get an early night and restful sleep.

Lots of love, L & Levi 💞🐾

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Hi @WIP ,

Ive missed you! I haven't forgotten you though. How are you?

Hugs,

BPDSurvivor

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@WIP did you get all your questions answered? Is your nephew arriving tomorrow. Love you

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@Anastasia Yes thanks, I did get my questions answered and feel a bit more prepared about the admission. Still very nervous though. However, I've had a mind shift and now accept that it's the best thing for me atm and I should feel better when off these anti anxiety meds. He is going to change my anti depressant, so fingers crossed for an improvement 🤞

My nephew arrived today, he's staying at Mums place. I'm seeing him tomorrow, so looking forward to that.

xx

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You're amazing @WIP 🙏💞 you've made my day 💕

So proud of you ❤️

How exciting, enjoy tomorow, I'll be thinking of you xxx

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Thanks @Anastasia
I'm a little proud of myself too ☺️
I'll be thinking of you tomorrow also. 💞

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Hey @WIP buddy, glad yesterday went well and you got all the answers and are feeling a bit better about your admission. Thinking of you 💕

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Hello my dear @WIP

I'm guessing you are getting organised for tomorrow both physically and mentally. I think you are super brave and I am so very proud of you. I am happy to be in your pocket when you need me as I know you'll have time when you're lonely. The advice I gave my boy when he went was to be a sponge, absorb all that you can. Take away as many tools provided. Ask questions, learn. Focus on YOU. 💕 Love you to bits L x

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