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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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@WIP thinking of you x

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Thinking of you @WIP and hoping your appointments were ok

💖💖💖

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Thank you @Eve7 @Anastasia

Havent been travelling too well, so not online frequently.


I hope you are doing the best you can. 💞💖

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Hugs @WIP I'm sorry to hear sweetheart. Please keep taking care of you and Levi 💕

@Eve7 👋💞 hugs to you too

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Thank you @Anastasia

I feel like a nuisance here - a nuisance most places actually.

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I assure you @WIP that you are not a nuisance 😄💖

Do you have your course on today? Love and hugs.

Emelia 💞

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Hello @WIP please know you are never a nuisance here or anywhere. Actually, you are a lovely, kind hearted, intelligent, courageous lady who is dealing with more than most ever have to face.

I really care about you hun and am here for you whenever possible. I hope you can also find support irl.

💜💖💜

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Thank you very much @Emelia8 @Eve7

Just having a bad run of it I guess.

Patiently waiting for things to get a bit easier, as I am putting the effort in.

Good news (I think) - I've ditched my previous psychiatrist & start with a new fellow next week. Had my 1.5 hr intro with him late last week, and he seems very compassionate. I hope the risk of changing is worth it. ?'!?!

How'd ECT go today @Eve7 ?

I think of you often @Emelia8 , and wonder how you have the strength to keep it all together.

Love you, L

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You must have good patience @WIP , because your wait has been long and your continuing efforts mighty. 👍💕

Im sure that is very good news WIP, about having found a new pdoc. I'm proud of you for persevering in finding a new pdoc. One that you trust and have confidence in.

I'm doing better thanks @WIP 🌷 a slow process, but getting there.

Love to you L 💕

Emelia

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I'm so glad to hear that you are doing better @Emelia8 - it makes me smile!

if anything, I am patient. Sometimes I wonder if it's a good trait or a burden. It was a surprise out of the blue, that this pdoc had an opening last week and also next week for a follow up. After my first visit he seems very caring and compassionate - a bit older, and maybe wiser?!? Bottom line is, I need a change in treatment, so I've gotta give it a go. Fingers crossed my friend 🤞🤞 He did say he thought he could help me, so I'm relying on that confidence.

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