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Changing meds

WIPSenior Contributor15 July 2020, 11:14 am AEST

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor13 Mar 2021, 11:23 am AEDT

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Their little faces, it's hard not to spoil them isn't it @WIP

Pizza night was nice thank you 💞

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WIPSenior Contributor13 Mar 2021, 1:36 pm AEDT

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Unknown userMember13 Mar 2021, 1:41 pm AEDT

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Hey @WIP

It sounds like such a painful day with things really compounding. I hope you're doing ok over there Please remember to reach out for assistance if and when you need Sitting with you.

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WIPSenior Contributor13 Mar 2021, 1:42 pm AEDT

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No one can help @Former-Member

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Unknown userMember13 Mar 2021, 2:14 pm AEDT

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I hear you @WIP, you're doing the best that you can.

I'm a little concerned about you so I've just sent a check-in your way

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor13 Mar 2021, 2:51 pm AEDT

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I love you L 🌹💞

@WIP

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor13 Mar 2021, 3:45 pm AEDT

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Come and join us for afternoon tea @WIP

Morning has broken thread x

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Eve7Senior Contributor13 Mar 2021, 4:02 pm AEDT

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Here with you @WIP

💜💚💜

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor13 Mar 2021, 4:55 pm AEDT

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Beautiful @WIP 🙏🌹

A song from me to you...

https://youtu.be/6xYGm0jgBcg

The more I tell you you can do this

The more you tell yourself you're useless

Any advice right now is fruitless

You're somewhere only you can go

I won't pretend to know, so

Instead of telling you you'll be alright

I'm just gon' be that someone by your side

Yeah let me be that distant satellite

A constant in the sky

'Cause I'm standing with you tonight

Yeah I will be that voice in your ear

Quietly destroying your fear

You won't even know that I'm here

But I'm standing with you tonight

Oh I will be the pill for your pain

Until the clouds have run out of rain

Close enough but just out of sight

I'm standing with you tonight

Your head is full and yet it's hollow

Don't even think about tomorrow

So if you let me I will follow

Oh if you're gonna go

At least you're gonna know

Instead of telling you you'll be alright

I'm just gon' be that someone by your side

Oh let me be that distant satellite

A constant in the sky

I'm standing with you tonight

Yeah I will be that voice in your ear

Quietly destroying your fear

You won't even know that I'm here

But I'm standing with you tonight

Oh I will be the pill for your pain

Until the clouds have run out of rain

Close enough but just out of sight

I'm standing with you

I know I may not say the right thing

Let me tell you one thing

Yeah 'cause there is one thing

You're wrong about

This world would not be a better place

I don't wanna lose you now

Yeah I will be that voice in your ear

Quietly destroying your fear

Oh you won't even know that I'm here

I'm standing with you tonight

Oh I will be the pill for your pain

Until the clouds have run out of rain

Close enough but just out of sight

I'm standing with you tonight

Oh tonight

I'm standing with you tonight

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WIPSenior Contributor13 Mar 2021, 5:44 pm AEDT

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I love you too @Anastasia

I had a lie down on the couch & drifted on and off for a while.

Had a fight with Mum on the phone, so now feeeling crappy and having a drink - that I know I shouldn't. At best, it'll help me fall asleep.

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