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Changing meds

WIPSenior Contributor15 July 2020, 11:14 am AEST

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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WIPSenior Contributor12 Mar 2021, 2:05 pm AEDT

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Thanks @Anastasia

I'm not doing well at all, been in tears all day.

I just to feel better, but I don't think I'm ever going to get better. This is such a hard road. x

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor12 Mar 2021, 2:20 pm AEDT

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@WIP

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WIPSenior Contributor12 Mar 2021, 9:07 pm AEDT

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I've cried all day, nothing new for me. I don't know how much longer I can keep going like this. I am so very sad with no hope I'll improve.

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BowSenior Contributor12 Mar 2021, 9:10 pm AEDT

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Sitting with you @WIP feeling the same tonight.

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TideisTurningSenior Contributor12 Mar 2021, 9:13 pm AEDT

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I'm sorry things feel hopeless right now @WIP in terms of things improving. Holding that hope for you that they do and sitting here with as you ride out this rough wave. Take care 💐

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WIPSenior Contributor12 Mar 2021, 10:11 pm AEDT

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Thanks @Anastasia sorry you aren't feeling great either.

Everyday I ride out rough waves. I cry for hours each day and the can't sleep at night. My psychiatrist doesn't listen and hold no hope I'll be able to find someone who can help me. I'm treatment resistant major depressive and getting g worse and worse. I don't care about anything anymore, and can't go on this way much longer. I ache with sadness and lack of hope

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor12 Mar 2021, 10:23 pm AEDT

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I hear you @WIP , I'm sorry 😭

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor12 Mar 2021, 11:23 pm AEDT

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Good night sweet L

@WIP love and hugs 💞

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor13 Mar 2021, 10:45 am AEDT

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Leaving this for you, it's exactly what you need to get through the day, as well as some flowers and treats for Levi xoxo

@WIP

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WIPSenior Contributor13 Mar 2021, 11:03 am AEDT

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Thank you lovely @Anastasia

You're always so thoughtful!

Levi will certainly enjoy those treats, although I'm guilty of giving him too many at times.

How was Friday pizza night?

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