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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Ok. Thankyou @WIP

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Thinking I need sleep @WIP thankyou for your support ❤️

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Ok chat tomorrow

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Morning @Former-Member

How are going this morning? I hope you were able to get some settled sleep 💞

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Hi @Anastasia

Wow, I can feel your positive energy through your posts. I'm so happy for you 🤗🧡

Wish I could say I'm doing well again today, but I've taken a dip - not surprising though. It always happens, I can have a decent day or two, then go backwards again. It's very, very frustrating. I was still awake late last night, didn't sleep very well and I'm sore after my Osteo appt. Oh well, I can only hope tomorrow is a bit better, but I doubt it as it's Dad's 2nd anniversary.

You've had such a productive morning, I feel so lazy in comparison. Sounds as though you've got a good day planned ahead of you, so I hope you enjoy 😊😊

L & Levi

💖💞💞💖

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Oh dear @WIP

I'm so sorry to hear. I remember you saying day by day. Tomorrow is looking brighter then for sure, perhaps even.later today? Hugs sweetheart, sending you strength. You do have this xox

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Thanks lovely @Anastasia

Just having a little cry 😢

It's just so frustrating the unpredictability of how I'll wake up each day - I HATE IT!
I know my bad sleep & sore back is contributing to it too, but I just feel so very flat today. I need to go to the chemist & I'm not sure I can even get there. But I have to go up the shops, I want to get Mum some flowers or a plant for tomorrow.

It's hour by hour, so you never know I may feel a little better this afternoon - I'm hoping so! But atm I'm still in my PJs and the only constructive thing I've done, is put a load of washing on.

Thanks for your well wishes of strength 💞💞

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Hi @WIP I survived. 😬🥺💜

Broken sleep. But it's a new day and I'll start again. I'm going to try not having any :tumbler_glass: in the house. I don't have any now, so I'll try hard to be good.
I've succeeded before, so it's not impossible.
Hi @Anastasia 👋💖

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Hi @Former-Member

Glad you got some sleep, even though it was broken. You may feel like a nap later this afternoon.

You can do!! Having no drink in the house is definately a massive help - well, that works for me.

I hope today is kinder to you.

💖💞

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Yes, hopefully I can switch off and rest later @WIP

Sorry you're not having a good day today. The bad days will become less, now that you have a caring gp and psychologist, new psychiatrist and doing the dbt therapy. Also, I think you'll feel much better once you're completely off the med you're going off.
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