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Changing meds

WIPSenior Contributor15 July 2020, 11:14 am AEST

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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WIPSenior Contributor08 Jan 2021, 11:44 pm AEDT

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Do you have nightmares sometimes @Former-Member

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Unknown userMember08 Jan 2021, 11:44 pm AEDT

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I often wake up scared, with seeing someone at my door. @WIP

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Unknown userMember08 Jan 2021, 11:46 pm AEDT

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No I'm not. I'm ok

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WIPSenior Contributor08 Jan 2021, 11:46 pm AEDT

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That's no good @Former-Member

Are you able to fall asleep quickly again after waking up like that?

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WIPSenior Contributor08 Jan 2021, 11:48 pm AEDT

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I'm going to need to go to sleep soon @Former-Member

Are you going to be ok?

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Unknown userMember08 Jan 2021, 11:48 pm AEDT

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I usually walk around and take my mind off things @WIP

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Unknown userMember08 Jan 2021, 11:51 pm AEDT

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Yes I'll be ok thanks @WIP think I'll cry myself to sleep Sounds pathetic. I know

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WIPSenior Contributor08 Jan 2021, 11:51 pm AEDT

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I suppose it's far to late & dark outside to go for a walk tonight @Former-Member

What can you do tonight to take your mind off things?

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Unknown userMember08 Jan 2021, 11:52 pm AEDT

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Hmm a walk sounds good @WIP

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WIPSenior Contributor08 Jan 2021, 11:54 pm AEDT

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I often cry myself to sleep @Former-Member - it's okay to cry (you told me that, remember?)

I hope you can fall asleep soon & sleep all the way through to morning, without waking from a nightmare.

We'll chat tomorrow @Former-Member

Stay safe.

❤️❤️🤗❤️❤️

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