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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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(((( @WIP 💙💙💙))))

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Going to go for a visit to Mum and Dad's.

I want to see how he's feeling about going to a restaurant for NYE and say hi as we haven't seen them for a couple of days. Your Mum should be there soon I would imagine @WIP ?

Love and squeezy hugs to you all and thank you for your company, I've enjoyed it immensely

@Emelia8 @Former-Member @Eve7 @BPDSurvivor 🌹🌷❣️💝🌸🤗🐯💐👂🤞🎁❤️🍬✔️💙

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I'm glad I haven't upset you @Emelia8 Thats the last thing I'd want to do.

You are so loved here on the forums & I'm so glad you responded to me. I often hope in anticipation that you will respond at times, as you are so wise and heartfelt with your responses.

I know how tough things are for you (in some ways your hubby reminds me of my Dads behaviour - ie, tea on the table by 6.30pm, mannerisms, regular behavioir), but that's only a small trouble you have in the big scheme of things. I just know you are going to be ok, I can just feel it.

Thank you again for your support,'kind words,'love &'kindness. I'm not sure if you realise how powerful it is, but it sure is.

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Hi beautiful @Anastasia

Never ever rely on my Mum turning up on time - it'll be another hour till she's here *sigh

Oh, enjoy the visit with your parents. I hope your Dad is having a decent day.

I heard something on the news about NYE fireworks being restricted, but don't know about much else.

A nice family dinner out would be lovely. Hope your Dad feels up to it.

Thanks for being here for me. Love you. x🌸🌼❤️❤️

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I’ll take down later @WIP

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Oh. Those tigers are just stunning @Eve7

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Yes, they were really playful catching a ball and swimming in the pool @WIP

Bluey was good too. Now this granny is sooo tired, but a healthy tired.

I hope your evening is better 💙💙💙

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What a lovely day @Eve7 🤗💐💞

👋💞 @WIP @Emelia8 @Former-Member @BPDSurvivor

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I'm so glad you've had a good day granny @Eve7

you deserve it.

love, L xx❤️❣️❤️

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I hope everyone's afternoon was ok.
I'm so pooped now. I was so sick of feeling useless and not achieving anything other than the usual chores, so I went and helped clean d's friend's house, who's been unwell. Came home and felt overwhelmed with what needs doing here. Oh well. At least I feel better about helping someone else. I still have to hang my 3rd load of washing out. Oh and I'm starving. Need to see what's for dinner. I skipped lunch. Thought I'd better get out before I changed my mind.

Yes, it is a constant concern with d @Emelia8 There's no cure, but I try to switch off from it as much as possible. 😢

I think I'd better get a cuppa. @WIP @Anastasia @Eve7 @Emelia8 💜

Thinking of you @Snowie and hoping your holiday is going well. I hope you are getting rest and having some fun. 💖

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