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Changing meds

WIPSenior Contributor15 July 2020, 11:14 am AEST

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Unknown userMember21 Dec 2020, 11:17 pm AEDT

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Sleep well @Anastasia night night.
And night night to you too @WIP I hope tomorrow is easier.
Night night @Emelia8 Sorry the tatts are painful. I hope you can sleep ok
Night night @Snowie @Eve7 and everyone.

💜💖😴

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Eve7Senior Contributor21 Dec 2020, 11:25 pm AEDT

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Nighty night @Former-Member @WIP

Sleep well ❤️💚❤️

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WIPSenior Contributor22 Dec 2020, 4:42 am AEDT

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Hi @Former-Member @Anastasia @Eve7 @Shaz51

Thank you for being there last night.

Bad night.

its 4.30am & I've been awake since 2ish.

Can't sleep & the power has gone off. Lots

of rain here in Melbourne.

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BowSenior Contributor22 Dec 2020, 5:45 am AEDT

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Hope today is a bit bright for you @WIP totally understand how easy is to cross that line. Do you have someone to reach out to today? Please be gentle with yourself

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor22 Dec 2020, 7:35 am AEDT

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Sorry you didn't get much sleep @WIP

Hopefully you are sleeping now.

Agree with @Bow can you make an appointment to talk to someone today hun?

Sending you gentle hugs reminding you that I care and think you are very special.

Please take care of you and little Levi.

💞🐕

Love you L x

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SnowieSenior Contributor22 Dec 2020, 9:36 am AEDT

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Good morning @Anastasia @WIP @Bow @Eve7 @Former-Member and anyone else around.

Wishing you a very good day and hope it goes well.

Much love and hugs 💜💛💜

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Unknown userMember22 Dec 2020, 10:22 am AEDT

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Good morning @WIP ☕️ 🥰 🌺🌸🌷

I hope that you were able to get more sleep.
And I hope the power is back on. Was it a storm that caused it to go off.

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WIPSenior Contributor22 Dec 2020, 10:32 am AEDT

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Good Morning @Former-Member

Thank you so much for being there last night. I fell asleep pretty early, but woke around 2ish & didn't fall back to sleep till after 5am (thanks to some medication). The power came back on around 4.30am.'I was panicking until it did, thank goodness it was off for just over a couple of hours -'food in the fridge should still be ok.

I really do appreciate your care and @Anastasia @Eve7 @Bow with you concern and hope I didn't worry you too much. Just another shitty night where my negative thoughts got the better of me.

I just don't cope this time of year and my sister pushing me away, has just topped things off.

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Emelia8Senior Contributor22 Dec 2020, 10:38 am AEDT

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@WIP Very relieved to hear from you early this morning. Sounded like a very very difficult evening for you. Hope today is a better day for you. Sending love and care. 😀💞

Emelia 🍒

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Unknown userMember22 Dec 2020, 10:46 am AEDT

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Good the power is back on. Yes, the food should be ok, especially seeing as the fridge door probably wasn't opened.
I hope you get through this :pile_of_poo: time of the year. I know what you mean.
Tradie turned up super early. Such a relief. I don't think he can finish today though. Gosh! I hope he finishes this week. @WIP ☕️🌷🌸

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