I am struggling at the moment

..naww.. @Former-Member ..well you would feel better .. well if you could eat.. umm am forcing water and veg today.. no real interest in either.. just have to..having 'epiphany' take 23.. same task, lots time passed, was interesting seeing ch 7 reporter on aust story ABC.. could have been me except for career, re school socials and alcohol at 14 etc.. anyhoo.. sumthin's gotta give.. all the best, you

@Former-Member I just wrote a long post to you and lost it 😬 Thanks for your support. I think I need your magic soup. I've noticed you've seemed quite positive in your posts. I hope that means you're feeling ok. I'm so sorry I'm fading now. Take care and I'll catch up soon. Sending hugs💜😊🤗💐

Just keep doing what you are doing. Have you eaten anything much today @Former-Member. If not you should try to eat and have some fluids. Because not eating would make you feel worse. Please try to eat something you need protein too.

I hope you are able to find someone soon= psychiatrist that is. I wish I could do more to help you. I think you can overcome this and he may not seen like it atm but you are moving forward.

What time is your appointment tomorrow? Let us know if you get admitted to hospital

How is your dog?

I have kira tucked up in bed with me- she is so adorable.

I am going to head off to bed, I think I need to unwind a bit and get away from this computer screen- it is probably not good for sleep.

Talk to you tomorrow @Former-Member Good night babe

I have my dog curled up next to me too at the moment snoring💜. I'm going to try to sleep as I'm fading. I hope you sleep soon too. Take care, I'll let you know if I'm going to hospital. I won't know until about 2:00 pm when I have my appointment. 💜😊🤗💐💤😴

I probably come back online tomorrow afternoon before my gym session at 5.15pm. cuddle up to your dog @Former-Member. Kira as just started to snore too. I hope you sleep well.......

Hi @Former-Member 🎉😀

Yay - I have found those little pics in my computer -

I read up a bit on Borderline Personality Disorder last night - I will look up the Facts Sheet Info here later

Today I have Getting Up too late to enjoy getting ready to take my cat to the vet disorder - GUTLTEGRTTMCTTV disorder - I kid you not - I did not sleep well then slept very late and I will have to get off my computer and move myself into the shower and brush the cat and get things ready to get out - and I feel as active and enjoyable as a sack of spuds sitting on the couch - just finished a cup of coffee - I hope that improves the situation

I really did not understand what the Borderline part of the disorder meant and it made no sense to me - I sort of thought that the Borderline bit was that the disorder was Borderline in the sense that it was on the edge - like one small move to the left and it was disaster and one small move to the right and it was fine. They used the expression about my son and now after reading about the symptoms etc of BDP I see it - my son did not respect borders - he was a very miserable person who gave everyone a hard time - and it was not his fault - after all his birth mother had not been able to keep him for whatever reason and he took it out on everyone for his whole life

That I understand - and I know this must have all sorts of different connotations and I will have to look it all up - not easy to really understand all these disorders - which makes me think we all have them - and while I sit here thinking I had better get myself showered and eat some lunch and order a taxi with a driver prepared to take a cat in a cage - it will be time to leave

I know what the bottom line is - I am not in the mood to take my cat to have her teeth scaled - that won't happen today - I can't open the cat's mouth to see what the tartar is like in their - and I am bothered - I am attached to the cat - and I don't think being attached to people and animals we love is an attachment disorder - I think it's wonderful that we care so much

Okay - time to move my life along

Decadian

@Former-Member

Just had a thought about you while reading about mindfulness body scans.

The concept of gently leaning into painful or difficult feelings rather than completely avoiding, battling or ruminating about them ... seemed relevant to our earlier conversation. As you claim more or your bodily experience it becomes less frightening .. so maybe dip into anger .. in bits .. doing a run .. digging .. deliberately .. owning the anger and thoughts ...

Have you done many mindfulness practices?

Walking with you .. on and off line

take care.

Apple

Hi @Former-Member

Thinking of you babe

Just wondering how you went today and if you are going into hospital?