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I am struggling at the moment

Unknown userMember23 July 2016, 6:06 pm AEST

I am struggling at the moment

I don't know why I am really writing this. There seems to be part of me which says that I need to pull my head in and do this alone and another part who so desperately wants to reach out for help. I am really struggling. I'm not coping at all. For much of the day I've thought about all the reasons to die and there are hundreds. There is also one reason to live that keeps me here. I can't let down my oldest son and cut out his trip of a lifetime. He would have to come home and pick up all the pieces for everyone. I keep telling myself I have to hold on until he comes back and then I can let go but this keeps me waiting to die not choosing to live. I have a cold sore that now goes from the corner of my eye the length of my nose and it's slowly creeping across my face from stress. It started on Wednesday and each morning I wake to find more of my face engulfed by it. I am so tired. I am so sorry to write this and I know I'm so lucky to have friends on here that care. I don't want anyone to have to deal with this as it is so depressing so I started this thread as a way of saying that I'm not well when writing here and please don't feel obliged to read or respond.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor11 Oct 2016, 8:18 pm AEDT

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💜💐 @Former-Member

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor11 Oct 2016, 10:33 pm AEDT

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Long Strong Group Hugz. @Former-Member

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DecadianSenior Contributor12 Oct 2016, 12:03 pm AEDT

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@Former-Member

Since I had a look at BPD I have a greater understanding of what you are battling with - it must be a nightmare of a condition to deal with - and I understand how you would want a break in a peaceful hospital environment to catch up with yourself a bit

You had a break a few weeks back - a couple of months ago - I forget when and time passes so fast - and it seemed to help - how fast people are to talk about the cost of this and that - what a puzzle - Governments spend so much on defence and space exploration - it is confusing to me that it is too hard to help out the people who really pay for all of that - the underpriviledged and the financially stressed

If people drop in to see you - eg your pharms worker and a social worker - and this helps - then this is good - but don't be to hard on yourself - if you need respite - you need it - try and get it and get the best out of it for yourself

Since I have found these little emoticons I am playing with them - so I will take this chance to express myself

Dec 🎉🎈💜🎡

Oh Yes - that's fun - I hope this is a pick me up

HUGS

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KurraSenior Contributor12 Oct 2016, 3:07 pm AEDT

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Hi @Former-Member
Sorry I haven't been there for you this week. You're in my thoughts and prayers. Holding your hand and walking this journey with you.
Luv n Hugzzz 💕 💜 💕 🎶 💃💃👣👣👣💕

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Unknown userMember12 Oct 2016, 8:29 pm AEDT

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Hi @Former-Member

You're in my thoughts and just wanting to know that you are okay babe.

Hope you've had a good rest and taking it easy.

Lots of Love

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Unknown userMember12 Oct 2016, 8:52 pm AEDT

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Hi all,

I'm laying low at the moment. It was decided from the mental health team that I needed to stay home with extra help from them, daily phone calls and more visits from my phams support worker. I was also given some medication to help sedate me which has knocked me right out and this is the first time I could focus to write anything. I'll be ok and just want to lay low for a bit, I think the medication will pretty much enforce that. The psychiatrist also wants to change my medication but when I am doing better than I am presently.

Thanks so much for all your support. I feel very spoilt.

Thanks @Former-Member, @Kurra, @Decadian, @Appleblossom, @Faith-and-Hope, @Former-Member, @Former-Member, @TAB, @BlueBay, @Former-Member for your recent responses and support.💜😊🤗💐