I am struggling at the moment

Yay @Former-Member .... ❣😊

I wondered as I was writing that whether it would be something of a fit for you too .... thanks for the feedback Hun ..... yeah .... an awful lot of artist-types struggle with the balance I think .... can't give away the beauty of the gift of sensitivity, but have to learn to work the controls .... when and how to turn the intensity and volume down ... and why that's necessary ....

Thinking of you on "spa-day" @Former-Member 😊🌷💗

@Former-Member

Well done on the shower and hair-wash btw .... I recognised that was a landmark ....

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Hi @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member

This thread is more to my liking - and idea - yes - inner filter

We are more sensitive to just about everything and we can suffer because those "so-called normal" people never reach deeply enough inside themselves to even scratch the surface of the hard parts of life that are normal for us - ah sheesh - you are right - we can dump a weeks worth of junk mail into the yellow bin without looking at it - read parts of junk-info in a waiting room and think nothing personal about it - even file our bills - pay them when we can or what ever way we do - without it bothering on mind in anyway rather than the condition of the bank account

But - a slight can send us into a mess - and hey - the "so-called normal" people never think about it -

Teasing me has never got anyone very far - I have two younger siblings - good training - but oh boy - I was in the super market one day and a woman started pointing and me and laughing because I was on crutches that day. Still pointing she laughed loudly saying "You've got crutches - you're so lucky"

Right or wrong for once in my life I actually got into someone's face - I went up to her and said

"Hey - keep your voice down will you - it is not at all lucky to have crutches - you can have some if you want - just go to the pharmacy and hire some - even by some"

I was really p*ssed off that day - why should this bother me? Why out of a million comments does this one spring often to mind.

So I don't know why I was the butt of someone's humour - but they do say and do things - these weird people - and crutches are not polite - they cannot be ignored - the crash noisily to the floor at the check out - they are a nuisance - but sometimes necessary -

Consider again the filter - how easily someone can get through to us when we don't have our filter working properly - the world is full of people and mail and TV programmes and advertising - it's even in what we read - there is no way past negativity and painful issues - and they will come from anywhere

So I think I like that idea of a filter? - who said that? My mind is a sieve today

@Faith-and-Hope - yes thanks for that idea - I am not sure about this post - but after a bunch of rather bad days I can say this

I'm not watching Dr Phil anymore - one episode set me off and I still have to get over it

Decadian

Hi @Former-Member

Thanks for the shout out - I fell in a puddle - and had two days with migraine - yesterday was bad enough to see the doctor -

Seeing the pain specialist always stresses me out - I am good at amusing myself and there have been no changes to my medication - I think there is not much going to change but let's leave that for now

It was Dr Phil who sent me over - for a six - I fell from a low place into a worse one - that really got to me - I still ask myself questions about my son - nothing left to be said - I know the whole damn story and I know I did all humanly possible and don't feel guilty - so there is part of my puzzle missing - or am I doing two puzzles at the same time - no no no - time to brighten up

Great you got to the shower - I know this is hard - after not eating all day yesterday and having an anti-nausea injection I felt a bit washed out - so I missed the shower and still would but I really hate the way I feel right now and maybe it will wash off in the shower - I need to eat something substantial first though I think

@Former-Member

Is it your little Kirra who has had all that surgery? I can't remember anything properly today - but I know I read that I think it was your little staffie - who had chemo and all sorts of stuff happening

Our furkids are our family - or part of our family - I think my little furkids is still asleep in my bed - no - she is wrapped around the little heater in the bedroom - I can't make the bed if the cat is in it - she looks so comfortable -

Thanks girls - when things are shadowy we can count on each other to notice

Decadian

Hi @Decadian

Thanks for thinking of Kira- your correct she is a little staffy. And she as had many operations and plus had chemo treatment last year and she had her last operation on Wednesday and she is doing really well.

My Kira is my furkid for sure and she is tucked up in my bed atm. I'll take her out tomorrow for a walk and Monday she goes back to the vet for a review. How is your kittycat today?

Hope you have a nice nite...