I am struggling at the moment

Hi @Teej ..... sitting with you ..... breathe Hon ..... breathe through it .....

It does sound like a bad session.

@Teej ..... 💜💐💕

For you this morning @Teej

Lilacs. It won't be long before we're enjoying them again.

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Thank you for your support @CheerBear, @Faith-and-Hope, @outlander, @Former-Member

i haven’t been that close to the edge for a while. My big tantrum is mostly over and I’m left just feeling solemn and lost.

Im not going to know until mid August if I get the go ahead for this therapy and in the meantime it is messing with me hugely. I have a strong feeling that I won’t be able to do it as I won’t fit the criteria. The very big hopeless feelings of not ever getting through this take over and the ,what’s the point, stuff comes back. The hardest part is I feel like she could help me.

@Sans911 I’m tagging you here so you know why I dropped out yesterday. I couldn’t write any of this in your thread.

@CheerBear Those lilacs gave me my first smile today. It inspired me to try and getting a cutting and try to grow some.

The hydrangeas (I think they are) are lovely as well @Faith-and-Hope.

I hope you enjoyed your quiet day yesterday @CheerBear.

Im meant to watch one of my sons play footy for the first time this year but I’m not in a headspace I can do that. I feel like I’m just on survival mode. I feel so ripped off that last week I was in respite and doing do much better but it hasn’t taken much for the wheels to come off and have lots of si. Sorry for the downer post.

It’s just good to hear from you @Teej .....

Be gentle with yourself and wait for / look for the up-swing ..... practice something arty if you can ..... do a “how-to” YouTube vid ?

Not trying to minimalist how you’re feeling, just provide you a baby step to go to.

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope. In the past I would have gone much further so I guess that’s something.

I think I’m just going to get through hour by hour.

Hugs 💜🤗

Thinking of you @Teej Sending

Thanks @NatalieS 💜🤗