I am struggling at the moment

Thanks @Kurra,

I hope I can use this to make real progress but I suspect it will be still steps forward and backwards.

@Former-Member I think you do express yourself extremely well. This has also been very much a learned skill in two years of therapy to get to the point I can work out what it is and then attach the words to the feelings. I used to have cheat sheets of emotion words I had to scan to understand my emotions. I think the challenging part at the moment for me is learning and understanding my needs, both the ones not met in childhood and the ones not being met now. This I am struggling with a lot. It's another foreign language just like emotions were when I started therapy.

@Former-Member I thought of you when I wrote part of that post. I have suspicions that sometimes you also need to be accepted for being you. I struggle with everyone who tries to fix me all the time in real life. Sometimes I just need them to accept I'm broken now and that itself is ok.

Thank you for your beautiful words of support @BlueBay. I think this psychologist you are seeing sounds amazing for you. It looks like you are already making progress with her. I am so pleased she is working out so well. You deserve her her help. It's great to see all your revelations already too. Keep up the good work.

@Former-Member

I loved your succinct post. I've been thinking of you a lot too. I bet you have all sorts of reflections going on since Christmas. You don't need to share them but I hope you are finding peace with things a bit more.

@Faith-and-Hope,

I was petrified writing this post and have been so worried about losing your support. Your amazingly capable hands have caught me so many times now. I'm not sure I'd get through without you. And the tears are flowing with gratitude for your support and your ability to say some amazing things that stick with me. Your belief in me gives me something to hold on to when I can't find anything myself. This year my therapist has had two main goals...stability and predictability and you feature strongly for me for both and I thank you for that from the bottom of my heart.

sending loads of hugs💜🤗

ps emoticons don't count either as words.

Hi @Former-Member

Thanks for sharing with us.

Thinking of you.

You know @Faith-and-Hope I could just imagine that situation with WH and the kids . It would just strip that peace you were escaping to. I hope it returns soon. How are the kids all travelling now? I can imagine they are exhausted. I think WH should come live here for a reality check. Pretty sure my zoo would get him thinking about stuff. Glad you can vent 💜🤗💐

I think I just shot myself in the foot @Faith-and-Hope. Feeling very messed up over it all

down a rabbit hole looking for a bottle 😱😩

@Former-Member