I am struggling at the moment

@Former-Member

Glad to hear you are ok, safe and warm at home.

I think you should do what is right for you, and I believe you deserve the very best of care & treatment. If these people are not helping you, you have every right to seek treatment from other health professionals. Plus you have the right to refute a diagnosis if you don't see that it fits, and like you said the treatment should be individualised to meet your needs and to assist in your recovery and to improve your quality of life. The most importat person in this relationship is you, if you go a resturant and you get bad service, do you go back? no. You go find another resturant to eat, the same principles apply to seeking health services.

Sorry about the gym earlier I was just trying to distract you a little. I don't think you realize how good you really are because it comes through with how you write and how you enagage with people here. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you and that you have a good night sleep.

SH and SI are so difficult to discuss.

1. None of us want to admit it to ourselves.

2. even less so to another

3. I dont want to give people ideas ... that they did not already have ... but if they have had them ... then it NEEDS discussion ... otherwise the suicide pandemic gets worse

4. cos my father was accused of malingering on the day before he died and my sibs are martyra to the de-institutionalisation cause ... then there plain ME .. I have a lot of vested interest in this subject being dealt with intelligently and honestly.

5. I also can stand on both sides of the lived experience/carers/MH professional fences ... yay ... did you see that ... its a 3 way issue ...

Look after yourself ... we shouldnt have to take unhelpful people in the industry ... and lets face it MH is a HUGE industry now.

If people in it cant help people ... they should play like nice boys and girls and change career.

Please don't be sorry about distracting me @Former-Member. The weirdest thing is no matter at what point I'm at I can still interact at an OK level with people which I guess makes it hard for others. I've done it on lifeline before where I've held it together until the very last part when I've been typing ok then admit to what I've done. But I haven't done that for a long time now.

Im really glad you've been able to get some relief lately through exercise. Thanks again for your support. Hopefully we'll both sleep well💜😊

@utopia

Maybe the phone buttons are too small and too close together .... and they are programmed to mess with our spelling .... that!/ my story anyway .... 😏💕

Good morning to whoever is around ....

I managed a big walk yesterday around the bridges after I finally got D3 to school .... think it is helping me sleep well, cos WH didn't, and S2 and D3 aren't, and last night I didn't notice .... and there were no texts on my phone from D3 this morning from being unsettled overnight.

That means she managed to self-soothe, or she actually slep okay. Her room is close enough that if she called out it would wake me, and if she was texting or calling repeatedly, WH would hear the pattern of vibrations and see light coming from my phone .... so at here is back-up if she really needs it.

She went to the pdoc again yesterday. I am hoping she is doing well with that and her constant headache will start to abate.

I had a chat to her yesterday about the affects of stress needing to leak out in a variety of ways - talking to the pdoc, a bit of exercise, keeping order and routine in her life, humour, daylight (she was trying to close all the blinds), music (she pilfered my earphones last night before dinner), bath/shower, peppermint and lavender oil stick for temples and back of neck (chemist product), Fisiocrem, heat pack (called for one last night before bed).

Seems she made use of some of the suggestions ....

Listed them all here in case they help anyone else ....

So glad you've got us @Former-Member we're part of your recovery kit now 😊 and you're part of ours ❣

@Former-Member - I jsut want to echo what others have said -

Your kids are exactly what you deserve, because you raised them to be that way.

Hope you're having a restful day.

Aw @Former-Member

There is no need to apologize about needing to struggle - after all - if you had been on the Titanic you would have fought and clawed your way to a life-boat - wouldn't you - I certainly would

But I am sorry that the Elephant is bigger - elephants are big enough anyway -and there is little enough space in the room when there is an elephant there already

Oh gosh yes - but you did get out to the appointment - and I guess you had to find out what was going to happen and it did not go well

Take it easy today - I woke up to a bad day cold with heavy rain - ah - horrible - I would lke to stay in bed all day today but it makes my back worse to do that

I am glad you got home safely though

Decadian

Hi @utopia, @Decadian, @NikNik, @Faith-and-Hope, @Appleblossom, @Former-Member, @Former-Member and anyone else reading this.

I have slept (crashed) for about 10 hours which I desperately needed. I hadn't been sleeping well for a while which I guess wasn't helping. Today I'm planning on taking it slowly. I feel flat and sad but surprisingly ok for now. I just want to thank you for all your supportive comments since I've been home too.

Thanks @utopia adding your support too, it meant a lot.

I hope you are having an ok day and that your back doesn't give you too much strife @Decadian or @Kurra too. I read your comments on night shift last night and it made me smile @Kurra. I love a self deprecating sense of humour, your story so easily could have been me😄

Thanks again all, I really appreciate having you all around with all the different life experiences you bring, you all help me in one way or another. 💜😊💐

Hi @Former-Member

I am so glad you have had such a long sleep - that has to help - and feel more sorted out even if you are flat and empty

From my part - I am glad I was there when you were going through part of that bad time - I have to say I felt so cold and rotten I went to bed and slept for hours too

This winter is destroying us - and we can't help the weather - we can only endure it

Let's see what it's doing today - well - it's still raining and rather - no - beastly cold -

Catch up later

Decadian