Chasing some words of wisdom

Evening all

How's things? I hope the weekend is being kind to you

Chasing some words of wisdom ... To avoid sending myself down a rabbit hole of negativity when comparing myself 2 others and what they have achieved

Back story for context:

Former house mate text me to say hi. And we've chatted a bit today via text.

This girl I rented with for way longer than I should have and in alot of ways was a big piece of the cause of depression and anxiety I now experience. Not blaming her, I didn't have the guts to assert myself and felt responsible for her. So stayed in the friendship/living situation to my detriment.

Anyways she seems to have really landed on her feet, changed jobs - enjoying it, gotten married, set up home...

And then I find myself looking around at my life and frankly I'm still in the same hole as when we stopped housesharing (which frankly was a shit fight in itself)(friendship blew up and didn't talk for a couple of years)

I know comparisons aren't helpful. I'm genuinely happy she is doing well. Just find myself thinking shite what the hell have I been doing - oh yeah that's right - surviving- doing the same shit over and over again.

Any advice or thoughts would be great.

@Dizzylizzy @Maggie

@Shaz51 @NatureLover @Guiding_Light