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Depressed

Alex32reddenSenior Contributor02 May 2020, 5:11 pm AEST

Depressed

Hi. My name is Alex. I am very deppressed and feel lonely all the time. I'm 25 in a few days and I've never had a girlfriend. I've been on dating apps for a long time but I haven't really had any dates. I feel very unattractive all the time. Sometimes I just pray I die of a heart attack or something. I really don't want to live anymore. Nothing is interesting. I have no motivation to do even small things. I think everybody knows I'm a loat cause. Nothing helps. I keep going up doses on my antidepressant but it's not helping. I'm hoping to try transcranial magnetic stimulation therapy soon. It will probably use up all my savings. I know that I crave physical touch. I'm not sure how normal that is. Every day someone says something that makes me feel more deppressed. I actually had a coping mechanism but my brother cut that off. I've also felt very stigmatized. I'm thinking of sueing people that stigmatized me. At least it will feel like I'm standing up for myself. But I'm worried the whole process will make more depressed. I'm just not sure how much longer i can go in this world. I have been seeing therapists but i honestly think they just make me feel worse

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Unknown userMember03 May 2020, 8:18 pm AEST

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Hi again @Alex32redden

Plese call 000 if you are are unsafe and it is an emergency Alex, You will need to get help off this forum if you are at risk.

Whitehawk

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Alex32reddenSenior Contributor03 May 2020, 8:18 pm AEST

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Everyone in this world are bullies and nobody gives a fuck about anybody. People only care about their own stupid stuff

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Alex32reddenSenior Contributor03 May 2020, 8:20 pm AEST

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Of course you want me off this forum. You're as bad as headpspace. You just get rid of people when you find out they are a lost cause. All the mental health stuff in the world is just for pretend. Iy doesnt even help anybody

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Alex32reddenSenior Contributor03 May 2020, 8:24 pm AEST

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You probably don't even understand mental health at all. I've even been discriminated against and very stigmatized

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Zoe7Senior Contributor03 May 2020, 8:28 pm AEST

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@Alex32redden This is not a crisis service - it is a peer support forum. If you are in immediate danger please call 000. If you are just venting and need somone to chat with them we are here but please look at our community guidelines first so you are aware of what you can and cannot tal about. It would be grear also if you could share a bit more about what is going on for you so we know better how to help you.

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Unknown userMember03 May 2020, 8:29 pm AEST

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@Alex32redden

Dear Alex, nobody wants you off the forums. The members and the moderators will continue to offer you support, information and connection. We just want to find ways that might be helpful.

Sadly neither the forum members not the moderators can help you in a crisis. This is why we ask you to reach out to the crisis and energency services if you need help. We do this out of concern for you wellbeing and safety.

Let us help and support you as much as we can,

Whitehawk

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Alex32reddenSenior Contributor03 May 2020, 8:36 pm AEST

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Nothing is going on for me. I have no friends. Don't have good social skills. No care or interest in anything. Really just want to kil myself and its very scary. I feel very trapped. Whenever i try and make a driend they just avoid me or i say something that offends them. People on facebook said i was abusive by calling people avoidant. I wish i was never born into this world. I was never meant for it. I'm pretty much the biggest fckup ever

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Zoe7Senior Contributor03 May 2020, 8:40 pm AEST

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That is not nothing @Alex32redden You have a lot going on and you have just told me so much more about yourself and how you are feeling. It is not a nice place at all to be feeling as you are - none of it ...the absence of friends, feeling alone, not wanting to live and wishing you were never born - all really tough things to be thinking. I need to ask - are you safe tonight?

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Alex32reddenSenior Contributor03 May 2020, 8:46 pm AEST

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I dont think i like people anymore anyway. I cant thino of anyone thay is good except my dog and she isn't a person. Whenever i meet someone i think is good they actually turn out to hate me and even discriminate me

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Zoe7Senior Contributor03 May 2020, 8:46 pm AEST

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That sounds really scary @Alex32redden and as if you really are in a bad place. Is there anything you have found you can do to help get those thoughts out of your head? Do you have any hobbies or things that you like to do that can distract you from thinking about other things?

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