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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Babe you need to be here. For your family and for me. I need you here babe. Please I know it's really dark right now. You have to hang on. I am still holding on to the hope that one day we will meet in person. I hope you can hold onto that too:

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Sorry for the late replies babe. There is a massive lag at the moment for some reason.

how did you hurt your hip babe?
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Sorry my love I should have made that clearer. When I said I am not if I should even be here, I meant here on the forum. I am not going anywhere, I am really hoping I can beat those thoughts and be here for a long time. @Lee82 @outlander

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Hey @Former-Member sorry to hear you're in physical pain today on top of everything. I'm going to send you an email to check in with you 🌻

Edit - Hey @Former-Member sorry about that I think I had a lag too, thank you for clarifying that you are safe.

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Why do you feel you shouldn't be on the forum babe?
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You know just being super sensitive to you and other members. Not everyone needs to hear my crap, I don't want to upset a anyone else. I how can I help you if all you do is support me, what if what I am saying triggers you. I certainly couldn't live with that my love. @Lee82

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Forgot my hip, I passed out in the shower. 😂 @Lee82 and landed on it hard.

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Babe please don't leave the forum. It will absolutely devastate me. I promise if things get too much for me I will let you know. Please don't worry about me. You are the one who needs the support right now babe and I want to be there to give it to you the best I can. You go silent I go crazy.
I love you too much and care about you too much.
@Former-Member

I am so sorry to hear about what happened in the shower. Was it because of the meds or something else?

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@Lee82 wrote:

Congratulations @NatureLover im so sorry I didn't realise your new role. Well done and you would make an amazing community guide. 💗


Thanks for your kind words @Lee82 ❤

Am worried about both of you @Former-Member and @Lee82, and @outlander too.

Am sorry to hear you passed out in the shower and injured your hip further @Former-Member 😞 I hope the appointment with your counsellor goes well this morning.

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