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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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no not yet @Lee82
tv show is still going and pop keep yabbering on every 2 seconds. im going to attempt a cup of tea till tv shows finished and then a shower

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Sounds like a good plan @outlander

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are you going ok? @Lee82

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@Former-Member I hope you sleep well and wake up well my thoughts are with you I hope your meds do you well ❤️

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@Former-Member Good night Izzy. I hope you sleep well sweetheart. Love pea xx

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@Former-Member 😕

Actually losing one of our respective friends here, is not the reason why I have struggled today. Although Sans post tonight has definitely added to my sadness and distress. I really hope she will be okay. She said she was, and I trust thats the case. She also said she will be back, and I look forward to that. I know I will miss her a lot in the meantime.

I am sorry you go to bed with such a heavy heart. Please keep in mind, this is not any of our fault. I know from personal experience, we all need a break occasionally. The forums can seem a very heavy place to be at times.

I hope you are not too sad about your D moving out. Thats just the way of things, children leave the nest and make their way in the world. She will be fine.

Please remain safe @Former-Member and know that I feel privileged to have met you too. 😇💖

Good night. 💤

Good night @Lee82 also. 💕

Sherry 🌺

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@Former-Member So sorry to hear you have been struggling today. I'm also so sorry about sans. Kind of feel like I may have contributed to her taking a break from the forum. I hope she is ok.

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@Former-MemberTake care Sans911. I love you and be back soon as you will be missed by everyone. Love pea

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Thanks @Lee82 💜

Just more of the usual for me, related to triggers and also dealing with husband issues. He is going thru a tough time going off one of his ADs and getting every side effect listed. Amongst them are STs, extreme rage and irritability. He is such a difficult man to deal with at the best of times. And when I am going through a ptsd related upheaval myself. Well .. its not at all easy. 😈

I am sure Sans will be okay. She has good offline supports. No doubt she is doing the right thing for her. But I do hope her break is not an extended one. 😔

Take care @Lee82

Sherry

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That's is a lot to take on @Former-Member I really hope things settle down for you and your husband. It's hard enough dealing with your own MH but having another person going through some things too makes it all the more difficult m. Really hope you can get some rest tonight sherry.
take care of you. 💗

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