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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member and @Lee82 , I am really happy for her. She seems really happy, but she is on the thinner side of what she was just two weeks ago. I am just failing to get my sh*t together after yesterday. Falling to keep the monster at bay and because of yesterday no one can come near me. D3 actually wanted a hug when she got home and I couldn't do it. 😞 💜Izzy

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First time moving out of home having to cook for yourself and look after yourself you may expect a little weight loss. Don't worry too much about that unless it continues dramatically hun. Same thing happened with me. I think I consumed more wine than anything else...lol takes time to get into a proper routine babe.
im sure D3 understands how your feeling right now babe. It's really tough when they want hugs and you can't physically give them. That was me a few weeks ago if you remember. I know it's heartbreaking but in a few days or even perhaps tomorrow you can give her one great big hug.
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thst bloody monster. I want to explode it into a million pieces. Stay strong hun. I know you can do it. I know you can .

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@Former-Member 😞💗

Sorry I have no words to offer you. I have been struggling myself much of the day. Just want you to know I really feel for you, and wish there was something I could say or do. I am reading along, but feeling very useless right now.

Please take care, and hang in there.

Sherry 💕

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It's ok my beautiful friend, it's not easy when we are struggling too. I wish I had the words to ease you worries and pain. Nothing hurts more than seeing a friend hurting. Take it easy sweetheart 💜🐶Izzy

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I know she will be ok Mel, but it's my first to really move out and not just go to their dads. I hope you are ok. I am so sorry I haven't been there for you. @Lee82

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I can understand that hun. It would be really rough to watch no matter what babe. I'm so sorry I don't know what I can can say to make you feel any better. 😞

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I am getting ready for bed as night meds are kicking in. I go to bed with a very heavy heart tonight. No words can describe what I am feeling right now. Please (Mel) don't stress I am as safe as I can be. Please be kind to one another and be gentle with yourselves. Been sitting here for five minutes trying to workout what to say but there are no words.

Good night my beautiful forum friends and family. I love and respect you, I am truly thankful that I have meant everyone one of you.

@Former-Member @Lee82 @outlander @NatureLover @Bunniekins @Sans911 @Zoe7 @Snowie @Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @Maggie @Ant7 @mudsum @Angels333 amd anyone I missed.

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goodnight @Former-Member

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My sweets I hope you get a good nights rest. I will be thinking of you tonight. I love you 3000 and more babe. Stay safe gorgeous. Please

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Hey @outlander did you manage to find some time for yourself tonight?

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