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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Thank you all for your well wishes.
just got home. Was a very very long day. Feeling exhausted but glad I spent the day out of the house.
hope everyone's Saturday was good.
@Eve7 @outlander @Snowie @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Anastasia @Emelia8

I am so sorry I have very little words tonight. I just can't think straight at the moment.

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@Lee82 @Former-Member

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So decided not to take night meds as they don't work well anyway and I would rather be awake all night then have the nightmares any day. They have amped up really bad. So doing a Harry Potter diamond painting and watching criminal minds on my iPad. Child alters are making a fairy garden for good fairies only and it's getting bigger and bigger every dam day. They even have a bloody water feature 😂 I will post pictures when we actually start it. There is a lot of prep work to do before the building starts.

Things have been getting more out of hand lately. My MH team just believe I am just getting to core issues and they are big ones.

really just rambling as everyone is in bed and I am bored.

Hope everyone is having an ok night and if not I hope you have someone to talk too.

Missing you heaps my friends sending you all love and light. ❤️

@Lee82@Emelia8 @Anastasia @outlander @Eve7 @Snowie @Bunniekins @Zoe7 @Sans911 @NatureLover

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@Former-Member Love you izzy is so good to hear from you. Cannot wait to see the garden. Love you.peaxxxx

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