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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Thank you for your love @Bunniekins

Em, you will never know how much I appreciate your replies. @Emelia8
@Anastasia , thank you, your flowers brought a tear to my eye. Love them and they are my fav colour pink.

@roses , thank you, I am hoping things improve greatly over the next couple of weeks as I miss my friends and family here.


@Lee82 , my day is exhausting as usual for a Thursday as it's a MH appointment day. Stuff is getting tough and my alters are finding new ways to "punish" the body for what they think is a wrong doing. It's gotten really hard to make it through the days. Alters are still very active which causes issues with being here because I don't trust them not to get me in trouble here. How are you doing today? Love you so very much

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Oh hun I can't even imagine how difficult it's been for you dealing with all the alters. Are they blocking you out completely or are you aware of what's going on?
I so wish I could give you a big hug irl, but have to settle for a virtual one.


today has been an exhausting day for me too as I also had a psych appointment. It was pretty rough. I had a couple panic attacks in there and it drained whatever energy I had left.
beautiful sending you all the love I can give.
@Former-Member 💗

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My beautiful BFF @Former-Member

how you feeling this morning my love?

sending you all my love and hugs.
❤️💚💜💙🧡❤️

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Hey gorgeous how are you feeling today? Do you have much planned for the weekend?
love you unconditionally beautiful

@Former-Member 💗

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Just wanted to apologise to everyone for not responding to everyone's posts so abruptly last night. Was having kind of a rough evening with panic attacks and flashbacks. I will do my best to respond later today to everyone I am just at a coffee job today and won't be around much here.
I hope everyone's Saturday is relaxing.
love and hugs for everyone.
@Former-Member @Anastasia @roses @Bunniekins @Emelia8 @TideisTurning @Former-Member @Eve7 @Snowie @Zoe7 @Shaz51 @outlander @Faith-and-Hope @NatureLover

and anyone I have missed.

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Okay @Lee82 ... have a good day. 🤗💕

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❤️ @Lee82

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@Lee82 no need to apologise hon. I hope your day goes well sweetheart 💜💜

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Hoping today goes well for you @Lee82

Take good care of you

💜💚💜

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