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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member Izzy you have always been here for me I am here for you sweetheart. Love always peaxx

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Dear @Former-Member

Sorry its another one of those days! But very happy to hear you are safe. I love you too, and will always support you to the best of my ability. Sending love and a gentle hug in the hope that you will not feel so alone.

Emelia 💞🤗

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@Former-Member 👂🤗🙏💕

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Hello @Lee82

Thank you for your message beautiful girl.

Are you home. How are you?

I'm ok. I get my results tomorrow. I feel so much better having taken it easy and pain meds. Crossing fingers for tomorrow. Love you 💗

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@Former-Member You can only do what you can do Hon and should never feel any pressure to do anymore. It is important for you to look after you and if that means you connect with those that you know are the best support then that is what you need to do. Having any undue pressure placed on you from anyone is not at all what you need to add to the pressures you already have so do what is best for you Hon - you are enough and what you need and can realistically do with all that you are dealing with matters the most. Hugs and hugs and hugs sweetheart

@Lee82 the above applies to you too Hon

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@Former-Member if I decide to stay, I'll be around if you'd like to chat. Once again I do apologise if I ever did or said anything wrong, it wasn't intentional. I don't recall but I guess I see your point. I asked mods to delete my account for good though, just in general, not you. I do care about you and I hope you're ok. I just came to this thread to check in with you, I shouldn't have asked if I did something wrong, yeah, I apologise.

I'm feeling really depressed and suicidal anyway (I'm safe), in general. So please don't attack me anyone.

And you have helped me, you haven't done anything wrong with me, I appreciate you trying to support me. I try to support you and others here too.

I'll leave you be. Again I'm sorry.

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@Former-Member the link says access denied for me

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Hi @Former-Member ,

Let me look into it.

Cheers,

tropicalsun

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Hi @Former-Member,

I sent you an email to explain what happened.

Feel free respond to the email when you get a chance.

Thank you,

tropicalsun

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so happy to hear that you have finally been able to get your pain under control a little more hun. Wishing you all the luck in world for tomorrow my love. I will be thinking of you.

We are still in the Sunshine Coast. We leave on Wednesday sadly for home. Today we spent the day at Australia Zoo. It was wonderful.

sending you lots of hugs my dear friend. Hoping you are doing ok. ❤️💜💚🧡💛💙❤️ @Anastasia

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