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Darkness

Unknown userMember23 Apr 2020, 7:03 pm AEST

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Unknown userMember16 Jan 2021, 9:36 pm AEDT

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Dear Mel & Myboy, thank you very much for your concern for my son. His 72 hrs has turned into at least 3 weeks at this stage. His father and the treating team think that he hasn't told them everything and is hiding something. After texting him about this I am very sure he isn't but then I am just his dumb ar*e mother is is mentally f'd up!! (Exh1 words)

@Anastasia , I am so sorry you are having a rough time, I saw you post on the other thread and I truly hope you have reached out if you have needed extra support. As for your health all I can do is cross everything I possibly can and pray that it won't be as bad as it is seeming right now. Sending you love amd light and a gazillon hugs, if I am allowed that is.

@Lee82 , hello beautiful those photos of the beach look absolutely gorgeous wish I was there too. You know I have never been to Noosa, never wanted too because it was too touristy. But I am glad that you got some of our amazing sunshine. I didn't even know that Bli Bli had a water park, I've been to the Bli Bli castle but not inside. love you 3000 to infinity and beyond Always

@Bunniekins, so nice to see you my gorgeous friend. I hope you are as ok as you can be. Super hugs for you my wonderful pea

@Emelia8 , just wanted to let you know that I am

always thinking of you. Hoping that you are having a restful weekend.

@outlander , I am sorry to of your struggles right now, financial stress is, well there is no words for

it. I lived for 13 yrs not knowing weather I could food on the table and pay the bills I wouldn't wish that on anyone. Always thinking of you.

To all my friends I am sorry I haven't replied to your tags but it's anniversary after anniversary and I am barely keeping my head above the water. I am trying hard to move forward but seem

to get but right back to the end of my tether every time. I will endeavour to get get back to you all soon, but please forgive me if I don't. Hoping everyone is settling down for the night and can get some peaceful sleep.

@Zoe7 , @MDT @Anastasia @Bunniekins @Lee82 @Eve7 @oceangirl @Angels333 @TAB @BlueBay @Judi9877 @Owlunar wish we where online at the same time really enjoy chatting with you Dec.

Good night to you all and anyone else passing through tonight.