FORUMS

Connect with people who understand what you are going through, seek advice and surround yourself with support. We're free, anonymous, and professionally moderated 24/7.

  • 47,612Members
  • 1,358,869Posts
  • 1,400,000Visitors
Something’s not right

Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

6906 replies

6,361 - 6,370 of 6,906

In response to: Darkness

Re: Darkness

Literally just in...

In response to: Darkness

Re: Darkness

Hey sweetie. Thank you so very much for your support. It helped me to realise that I have done a hell of a lot even if doesn't seem that way to the people around me. I had a pretty bad meltdown this arvo but got in contact with a helpline and they helped me get through the moment.
I am just so damn tired of having to miss out on things and take things easy.

beAutiful I saw your creations you did In Your paint room. They are amazing. How you feeling tonight hun? Any word about your son?
@Former-Member

My love I am so sorry I am just not coping very well at the moment. I will message you again a little Peter on. Love you my amazing BFF

In response to: Darkness

Re: Darkness

Dolphins are lovely @Lee82 but you did the right thing today.

My definition of a holiday is not racing all over the place every day but more like making the big decisions such as “What side of the pool should I place my towel today””?

💖🦋💖

In response to: Darkness

Re: Darkness

Hey beautiful. How have you been doing? I hope you have been taking it easy hun. How has work been going? Thank you so very much for your support yesterday. I felt so very blessed to have so many friends here helping me through a rough patch.
how has your boy been doing lately?
@Anastasia

sending you hugs gorgeous ❤️💜💚💙🧡

In response to: Re: Darkness

Re: Darkness

Good morning gorgeous, How are you feeling this morning? My boy is still in hospital and I have been texting with him and as much as he knows its the safest place after a week of being there he just wants his own bed, his computer and good food. Please be very proud of yourself for eveery thing you have done on this holidiay because I am very proud of you. Not a good start to the day for me but o can onluy ger better. Love you 3000 and alwsay wioll @Lee82

In response to: Darkness

Re: Darkness

Hey @Eve7 how was your day yesterday with your family?
i would have loved to have come over to sit by the pool with you. That would have been amazing and exactly what I think I needed.

hoping your day today has a little sparkle in it beautiful 🌟 💗

In response to: Re: Darkness

Re: Darkness

Honey please take a breath. I see that you are struggling. I am here with you holding you hand. I love you so very much gorgeous

@Former-Member

In response to: Darkness

Re: Darkness

Hey gorgeous. Thank you so very much for your support yesterday. It meant a lot to me to read everyone's messages. It helped more than you know.
what are your plans for today @Zoe7 ?

In response to: Re: Darkness

Re: Darkness

I see that you had to have a Covid test @Anastasia . I am hoping you are feeling ok my love. So glad it came back negative. 🙏

In response to: Re: Darkness

Re: Darkness

Some more work in the garage and garden @Lee82 Have already been out there but forgot to charge my drill so doing that now - it will take a couple of hours to fully charge. I can do a little more of my garden bench whilst it is charging then the final steps to begin putting it all together. I should have it all ready to sand and paint by this afternoon.

What is on the agenda for you today?

6,361 - 6,370 of 6,906