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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Oh @Former-Member

I am crying real tears for you and your dear boy. I've been there 😔

Awful. Just awful 😭 I'm so sorry.

Holding your hand and sending Mumma hugs from one Mumma to another 😭

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@Anastasia , thank you. I am sorry that you understand this experience, I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Your hugs are greatly appreciated need lots of them. After 24 hours they finally have a bed in the ward for him. We are meant to be going away, well we where meant to leave yesterday but I am not sure I want to go now. The reason for the trip is still very valid but my boy is not in a good way. I don't know what to do, thank god hubby is understanding. 😭😢

Mel, you ok babe? @Lee82

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Feeling blue today, I don't like it the mix is off but it's how I am feeling

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@Lee82 , my love please let me know you are ok

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Heading to bed now after another stressful day. My son finally has a room and is hating it. I hope he allows them to help him. My trip is off until I see him at least. Sending all of my friends and family here so goodnight hugs, some wishes for sweet dreams amd hope that tomorrow beings you each joy amd peaceful moments.

❤️🌷 @Lee82 🌷❤️
💜👩🏼‍🏫 @Zoe7 👩🏼‍🏫💜

💚🐶 @Emelia8 🐶💚

💚🧚🏻 @Bunniekins 🧚🏻💚

💙🦋 @NatureLover 🦋💙

🤍🦖 @outlander 🦖🤍

❤️🏎 @Sans911 🏎❤️
💙🌸 @Shaz51 🌸💙

💜⛄️ @Snowie ⛄️💜

💛🌼 @Anastasia 🌼💛

💜🌇 @Maggie 🌇💜

I know I haven't tagged everyone but that is as much as I can manage right now. Good night

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Goodnight @Former-Member sleep well

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@Former-Member 💝💞

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I'm so sorry hun it has been a pretty rough day. I have had a few panic attacks and tired myself out and then slept the rest of the day away.
I'm so sorry your son is hating being in hospital babe but it's the safest place for him right now and hopefully in a bit of time he will get use to it and understand it's the best place for him right now. I know as a mother it's hard to see your child in that position hun so I hope you are looking after yourself as well.
To answer your question from a few posts ago. I have a couple of friends looking after Boris for me. They will walk him everyday and feed him. I am a little anxious about leaving him for so long. We havent been away from him for this long since we got him.
love you hun with all my heart and more.
@Former-Member

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Hey @Eve7 how have you been hun? How was your New Year? I am so sorry I haven't been around all that much lately and I haven't been around to support you. I truly hope you are doing ok. Sending you some love and letting you know that you are always in my thoughts. 💗

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That is ok Mel, I was just strung out myself yesterday and was letting fear control me. I hope you manage to have some decent rest amd are as ready for your flight today as you can be. I am

going to check in as often as I can with you today so you know that while you are in the air I am with you. I truly hope this holiday is filled with love and the sounds of laughter. Looking forward to hearing about your adventures. I love you 3000 @Lee82

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