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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Mel, any chance you could hit the support button so I know you are as ok as you can be my love?

Love you 3000, to infinity and beyond Always @Lee82

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Goodnight my beautiful friend, just wanted you to know that I am

thinking of you amd hoping that you are ok. Loving you always @Lee82

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Day 5 and my mind is starting to create the worse possible thoughts, @Lee82 Hoping and praying that you are ok my love.

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I am so so so sorry I haven't been able to be around my love I have had zero service for a few days. I have just driven about half hour away to get some reception today. Sorry I didn't do that earlier but I have been in no state to drive. I knew you would be worried and I have been stressing over letting you know that I am as good as I can be at the moment. Still in Bonnie doon but I am going home today if I can muster the energy to drive 2 hours. I have had a few moments of weakness in the last couple days so I am feeling very sore. Please know that I have not stopped thinking of you and that I hope you are doing ok beautiful. I love you to infinity and beyond. Please stay strong my BFF. Happy New Year my love. I hope this year turns out to be a good year for you.
@Former-Member ❤️thank you for being an amazing friend, support and for helping me to continue on. I have never ever met anyone quite like you and that I can say I love with all my heart and soul. I know we haven't met but I feel closer to you than I have to anyone in my life. You are one amazing person beautiful. Thank you for being you. ❤️

to all my other forum friends. It has been a struggle but I am some what ok. I hope you all are doing ok and have been able to enjoy your holidays. Happy New Year to you all and here's to 2021 being a better year for all of us. Take care , stay safe and you are all always on my mind and you are all very special to me. Thank you for your support.
@Emelia8 @Zoe7 @Bunniekins @Anastasia @NatureLover @Sans911 @Shaz51 @Eve7 @outlander @Snowie @Faith-and Hope @Maggie @Pollyotter and I am so very sorry I have forgotten anyone.

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Sorry you're struggling hun. Thank you for checking in 🙏❤️🌹

Sending you love @Lee82 and to the gorgeous @Former-Member too x

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I'm so sorry I was unable to wish you a very Happy 50th @Anastasia on New Year's Eve. I hope you were spoilt and had a good day hun. ❤️

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Have a safe trip home @Lee82

Sorry it’s been difficult for you hun 💛

Thinking of you also @Former-Member @Anastasia

Hoping today is kind.

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I love you @Lee82

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@Former-Member Here with you Hon

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Ohhh noooo @Former-Member I just read your post in the Worry Room. 😔🌹

I am here now, and sitting quietly with you my dear friend.

I pray that your son will be okay. Please do not blame yourself, you could not have known. 💔

Holding you tight.

Emelia 💞

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