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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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That sounds heavenly @Zoe7 a real complete break from everything is exactly what I would love to do. Wish I could join you...

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That would be lovely if we could @Lee82 We could kick back at the beach with fur babies.Does Boris like the beach?

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I am so very sorry to hear Christmas didnt go well for you hun. 😔

yea I was very surprised how I was able to get through it so well. I have to confess though that I did manage to drink a hell of a lot which seemed to help me get through the day. Not something I'm proud.
I can't handle car racing either. My brother is a very big rev head and so was my dad so I grew up watching it and going to meets etc. 😣😣

@Emelia8

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He actually has never been to the beach but we have taken him down to Bonnie Doon a couple times however he hates the water...😂

would love to kick back on the beach with you hun. ☀️🏝⛱

@Zoe7

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Tobes doesn't like to swim but will run along the sand in the shallow water occasionally @Lee82 He does love rolling around in the sand though and always comes home looking like a sand monster lol We could both watch him in hus mad runs and rolling around - makes everyone laugh

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Lol...that's so damn cute. Would love to see that.
😁 @Zoe7

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@Former-Member Honey I truly hope you are ok. I am so worried. 😔😔

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@Anastasia Are you ok hun?

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Hi Beautiful @Lee82

Yes. I just woke up! I went to Bunnings with bf earlier stopped on way home and bought lots of yummies for lunch/dinner came home, ate, watched episode after episode of "Love Life" and just woke. Overall it's been a nice day to hang out with him and relax.

What about you, are you ok hun?

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That sounds like a wonderful day together hun.
so happy for you. I'm hanging in there. I went to see my Aunties today and my cousin was over with her new baby boy. It brought up some pretty tough memories and I'm struggling a little atm. My cousin is the daughter of one of the people that treated me horribly so seeing her was rough. But on a positive note I got to hold little baby for a bit and That was really nice.

@Anastasia

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