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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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It really is my pleasure @Lee82 No thanks necessary - only relaying what I have seen and you have done all that work

Going to head off now Hon - watch a little tv and head to bed as soon as I can. I hope you and your boys all enjoy tomorrow - if you start to get too anxious think of me on your shoulder, fluttering my tiny wings and whispering in your ear 'You got this". Hugs and hugs Hon

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Thanks beautiful. I will keep that in mind and you on my shoulder. I hope you get some decent sleep babe. Sweet dreams and chat soon. Was great chatting with you. @Zoe7 ❤️

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Good morning @Lee82 , hoping you have a wonderful day 🌸 xx

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That was a beautiful message to wake up to this morning. Thank you @Schitzo . I hope you have a good day today too. 🌼

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Good morning @Lee82 @Former-Member @Schitzo @Eve7 and anyone else around.

Hoping your start to the week goes ok for you.

Lots of hugs sent your way💜

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Hey my beautiful BBF. How you doing my love? Just wanted to let you know that you are on my mind and that I love you with all my heart. @Former-Member

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Good Morning

@Lee82

@Former-Member

Much love to you both

❤️💚❤️

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Hey Mel, it hasn't been a great week, I have been on here because I haven't "been" around and not by choice. Something was triggered in my last session with my new Natalie and I have a new child alter. She is around the same age as kimmy, Hubby cant be sure but she is in freak out mode and bl;ocks everyone else out. Today has been my first full day here since last thrusday.

How are you doing? I bet the boys are getting excited about Christmas day.

I think you will be ok if you are flying straight from Melbourne to the Gold Coast, as long as you haven't been near the Northern beaches in Sydeny. One of the best things on the Coast for the kids is a place called Infinity, but this is one that I strongly suggest you don't do as it can be very dark as you make your way through kinda like a maze and if they haven't changed it too much since I was there last it was a complete freak out for me. Infinity is located in the Chevron Renaissance Center, Cnr Surfers Paradise Blvd and Elkhorn Ave.Next one I hihghly recommed doing is the Aquadauck City tour and river cruise, it goes for about an hour and half and once a upon a time the younger kids go to steer it once they were on the river and got a little souvenir license at the end and this is one you might enjoy. Another what my kids would have call a must is TimeZone one level 1 Paradise Center, located in Cavil Mall. This is huge and nosiey but the kids will enjoy it so much. There are night markets every Friday and Saturday night from 4 till 9 at The Foreshore which is right on the beach and at the top end of Cavil Mall. I imagine that you little Melbourneites would burn pretty quciklly in the QLD sun so remember to put some sunscreen on before you leave for the day otherwise ick ick ick.

If you are hiring a car then taking a day trip to Montville on the Sunshine Coast would be worth it, maybe not for the kids but it is a sweet place to visit (or it was, haven;t been in years) The other thing if you headed up there would be to checkout the Eumundi Markets they are unreal.

I hope that helps a little, I lost my original list I made for you and it had so much more on it. @Lee82

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Oh how I have missed you my love. I am so sorry to hear about the week you have had hun. Realising you have a new alter that is coming out must be a lot to deal with especially when they are young and controlling. I truly hope that you will stay around long enough to enjoy the next couple days beautiful. Hope you can enjoy seeing your loved ones receive their presents you took the time to make.

what are your plans for Christmas hun? I'm not sure I have asked you that before.

thank you so very much for all your suggestions of what to do with the kids whilst we are at the Gold Coast. That was amazingly sweet of you. We also are spending a week at the sunshine coast so I will definitely check out montville and we will definitely go to the markets.

The boys are super excited. Jules is picking them up tomorrow morning to spend Christmas Eve with him and his family and then I will pick them up tomorrow night so they will be waking up with me Christmas morning.

how are you doing gorgeous? I haven't been able to stop thinking about you.

love you always! ❤️ @Former-Member ❤️

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@Former-Member just for you hun

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