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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Lovely to see you too my awesome friend @Lee82

Soo tired, going to see if I can get some sleep xx

How are you my friend xx

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I hope you are able to get a nice rest @Shaz51

I haven't been that great but I am hanging in there.

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Thanks @Shaz51 , hope you sleep well my friend.

No need to lie to hubby as he was home early tonight. Let's just say he was not happy and leave it at that. We haven't been on tonight because my phone went flat and my computer and iPad seem to think I live overseas and I can't access the fourm from either now. I am sorry you find it so hard at Christmas time and yes very draining to pretend Mel. Unfortunately my night meds are starting to kick in 🥱😩 I will leave you with a picture of what I am weeding to but on a cup for hubby. @Lee82

This last pic you can see all the little white areas I have to pull out.

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I hope he was not happy with the social worker and not you hun.
how have you been sleeping lately babe?
It has been great speaking with you today my love. I have missed it so very very much.
love you 3000.

just waiting for the pics to load.
@Former-Member

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Wow that looks so cool. I can't wait to see the finished product. You are so very talented my love @Former-Member

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He was mad at me as well for not telling her the truth but I am use to being in trouble so no skin off my nose. I will definitely show you the finished cup. I have loved talking to you as well my love. I sleep well these days thanks to very strong, knock me on the butt meds. When they refused to take meds then we don't sleep well at all. Love you 3000 Always. @Lee82 Goodnight babe

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Sweet dreams my love. I hope to be able to speak with you again soon.
I'm so sorry hubby was upset babe. 😕

@Former-Member

I am so happy to hear you have been sleeping much better these days.

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@Former-MemberHey hunny your gifts look beautiful 🙂 you are truly talented. Homemade gifts are always the best imho. Sorry that the support worker is a dud .... I have3 diferent ones who are all good in their own way.Took awhile though. Take good care of yourself. Love always peaxxx

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My love how you doing today? I hope you are as good as you can be at the moment.
thinking of you always beautiful loving you too.
💗 @Former-Member 💗

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