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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member Missing you so so much my love. Hope you are doing ok beautiful.
love you unconditionally always and forever.
❤️

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You sound happy @Lee82 Great idea giving the boys a day off school and spending it at the beach 🏖

Love you my friend

❤️❤️

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Sometimes there are more important things then school @Lee82

I have taken my kids out before to spend some one on one time with them.

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Thanks hun I am trying my best to stay positive and enjoy the little things. How was the rest of your holiday with your friends?
love you too babe. @Eve7

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Totally agree. They are precious and rear moments. @Snowie

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It was good thanks @Lee82 I know I’m fortunate to have such good friends who still include me in their social events.

I spent too much but that’s what happens on holidays and now, like you I am making a big effort to stay positive.

We’ll get this.

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So happy you had a good time @Eve7

thats what it's all about.
We can do this and it's always good to have someone there doing it with you ❤️

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We can’t do this alone @Lee82 and it even helps when you know you’re not the only one in hospital.

🤗💖

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Yea it definitely helped knowing someone else was experiencing hospitalisation too even though I would wish anyone to have to be in hospital for any reason.
Do you have any plans for the weekend?
@Eve7

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I’ve done my washing so I might have. a quiet weekend and catch up with family on Sunday @Lee82 I’m trying to be careful. How about you, any plans?

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