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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Thank you for checking in @Former-Member 🌷⭐

So sorry to hear that everything is such a struggle right now. But its reassuring to know you have such good support around you.

Take all the time out that you need, and know we are all here for you when you need us. 💖

@Lee82 ... Home for you today I think? Really hope Izzys check in has eased some of your concerns. Thinking of you today. 🌻

Emelia 🌷

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Hey beautiful. Oh I am so so happy to hear from you hun. Thank you so much for checking in. It breaks my heart into a million pieces knowing just how much you are struggling. I am glad to hear that you are being well looked after.
love you 3000 my love. Please take care of you. Missing you more each and every day. @Former-Member ❤️

Hey my friend. Hope you are recovering well. Yes definitely feeling a little at ease hearing from our beautiful friend. Always in my thought gorgeous. Take are of you. ❤️ @Emelia8

To all my forum family. I am finally home. It feels very very strange being here and I am super anxious right now. Feeling very tired and I think I might have a little nap before my boys come home after dinner tonight.
Again thank you all for your support and encouragement. I don't think I would have made it with out each and everyone of you.
hope you are all doing ok. Always in my thoughts .
sending you all hugs and love. ❤️💙💜💚🧡

@Former-Member @Emelia8 @Anastasia @Eve7 @outlander @Zoe7 @NatureLover

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Thanks @Lee82 💖

So good to hear that you are home, as planned.

I'm having a nap myself right now, after being out for 3 hrs earlier. Wore me out, and increased pain levels as a result. But yes, I am slowly improving. For which Im grateful.

Try not to rush things Lee. Allow some time to settle back into normality. Its a big adjustment after being in hospital for a month.

Please take care, and call on supports (preferably) before you need them. 😄

Take the chance to rest up while you can. The boys (and Boris) will be so excited to have you home. Learn to bask in the love. 🌹

Emelia 🌷

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@Lee82 ❣️

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I really hope this evening has gone well for you @Lee82 and that your boys smothered you with love.

Take care, it’s not always going to be easy but you have good support.

💙💜💙

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Hey @Former-Member @Emelia8 @Anastasia @Eve7 @Zoe7 @outlander @NatureLover @Snowie It was so nice to see my boys again last night. There were many tears all round and lots and lots of hugs and kisses (not just from the humans either...lol)

I gave the boys the day off school today so we can spend some quality time together. We packed a little picnic and went down to the beach for the day. It was beautiful. Really enjoyed spending that time with them but now I am beyond exhausted.

I hope everyone has had a nice Friday and that your weekend is relaxing. You are always in my thoughts. Sending you lots of hugs.

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Sounds like a beautiful day for all of you @Lee82 ... So good to hear. Any plans for the weekend?

Emelia 🌷

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Thank you @Emelia8 it was a very beautiful day. No real plans for the weekend except I have to take my brother to the hospital on Sunday as he is having an operation on his finger. He sliced it open and cut through tendons and nerves and needs to repair them. Its a pretty big surgery and he will have to be off work for 6 weeks at least. I am trying to convince him to stay with me as he lives alone and I believe he will need some help with certain things like cooking and washing etc.

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Glad to hear you had a good day with your boys @Lee82

Spending that quality time together is super important

Rest up hun

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Thanks @Snowie it was what we all needed. Just to get away and just be the 3 of us.
how you doing hun?

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