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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Thank you, I'll quickly tag you then I'm off for the night, have to have dinner and go for a walk shortly and whatnot.

Oh wow I'm so sorry to hear that, I hope you're OK and recover soon. I'm sure you'll be glad to be at home, that sounds awful. I really hope things get better.

I've missed you, @Former-Member, and others I've interacted with. I wasn't sure which thread to find you all on so I apologise if this is the wrong one.

Good night and take care, I'll try to catch up with you all tomorrow or at some other point xx

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@Former-Member

can you please email me

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I will flick you through an email shortly @Lee82

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Thank you @Jynx

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Hope you are okay @Lee82 🌹

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Not really @Emelia8 i am extremely worried about our friend and I can't control my emotions around it. I don't want to alert the nurses because I don't want to say or do anything that may jeopardise my release

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Yes of course, I understand @Lee82 😔🌷

Many of us here are worrying about @Former-Member . But there is not anything we can do other than hope and pray that she remains safe, and will soon return to our midst.

Can I suggest you post here, as if she is listening to every word you utter. Because the likelihood is that she is indeed following along. Just does not trust herself to be here right now.

Another alternative is to write a physical letter to her and spill out everything you want to tell her, no restrictions. Then keep that letter close to your heart.

You two share a very special bond, and I know she is listening.

Emelia

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I don't know @Emelia8 I feel like something is very wrong and it sends me crazy knowing that there is not a damn thi g I can about it.
I have bern postibg as mucg as I cab to ler her j is I an wirrjes

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Yes I know you have @Lee82 ... thats very admirable. Im sure @Former-Member appreciates that.

But @Lee82 no matter what ... I know for sure that Izzy would not want you to jeopardise your hospital release due to worrying about her.

Please breathe Lee ... In and out, slow and controlled. Panicking will not help you nor Izzy. You need to stay strong and resolute my sweet.

Get yourself well and strong now. That will put you in the best possible position, to in turn help our dear Izzy when she returns.

Does this make sense?

Em 💖

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Makes swnabe but I cabt

@Emelia8

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