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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Lee82 thinking of you as your potentially come out of hospital this week... sending

Thinking of you too, @Former-Member

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Hey @Emelia8 how you feeling? Thank you so much for your message. Yes it has been a month but feels like 6 months. I am scheduled to go home Thursday at some stage. I will have things put in place once I return home and I have a very good MH team that will be monitoring me very closely especially these next few months as they are the hardest months of the year for me. I am super nervous to get out. I hope you are recovering well my friend. You are always in my thoughts. ❤️

thank you to everyone who has wished me well for my release. Thank you also for all your encouragement and support whilst I have been in here. It has been a tough and very long process and each and everyone of you have helped me through it so thank you from the bottom of my heart.
@Former-Member @Emelia8 @NatureLover @Schitzo @BlueBay @outlander @Zoe7 @Anastasia @Snowie @Eve7

Eve7 I am so happy to hear that you have gone away with your friends after getting out of hospital. I think that is a great idea being able to go away with friends and be in a relaxing stress free environment with company for a couple days before you head back home to normalcy. You are going to feel very over stimulated for a while but hopefully that will subside quickly for you hun. All the very best with everything my friend. ❤️ @Eve7

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My love I am out of my mind with worry hun. I truly hope you are doing ok.
please let me know you are ok. Please babe

@Former-Member

loving you with every bit of my being.

❤️💙💜💚💛🧡

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@Lee82 take care my friend

💜💜

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I can't cope right now. I am losing control. I am consumed and I don't know what to do. Feeling lonely and so very lost. Feeling extremely helpless and afraid..

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Hello everyone, @Lee82 @Former-Member and others.

I'm just popping in as I was trying to find some of you to say hello, and I wasn't sure which thread.

I hope everyone is OK, I don't know what else to say right now, just that I'm back and I've missed you all and have been thinking of you all.

Please stay safe and take care, and I hope I'm not intruding, my apologies if I am. If you don't wish to talk, no pressure, I can go on other forum threads if you wish also instead of here, from any of you or other users.

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Hey honey it's been awhile. How have you been?

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@Former-Member Please honey. I need to hear from you

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Hey @Lee82 , lovely to hear from you. I've been ok, I have a new thread I made today if you wish to check it out giving a bit of an update, but no pressure to look at it.

How have you been? I've missed all of you @Former-Member, sorry if I missed tagging anyone

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Would love to check out your new thread if you can tag me in it that would be great. I have been up and down. I have been in hospital for a month but will be getting out on Thursday.
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