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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Emelia8Hunny bunny it will take some time to get over your operation. Just take it easy and try not to stress. Look after you. Am so sorry to hear about your father in law but to be honest I wouldnt like to see you do any big trips atm. Love you sweetheart. xx

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Hello beautiful @Lee82

I'm excited for you. Not long now. 🤩💞

@Emelia8 I am so terribly sorry for your and hubby's loss. 😔💞

@Former-Member 💞

@Zoe7 💞

@Bunniekins 💞

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@Lee82 Gentle hugs for both of us is in order I think :). We need to be kind to ourselves. Sometimes I forget that. xxx

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Oh @Emelia8 so so sorry to hear about your father in law. My condolences. It is so sad that still people cannot travel especially for important things like that.
Glad to hear that you are healing a little each day but can imagine how uncomfortable you must feel babe. You are strong hun. Sending you gentle hugs and love my friend.
Again so sorry for your loss. ❤️

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It will be good to make it to the holidays @Lee82 - very tired and need the break from everything.

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Thank you hun. How have you been? How was the end of your working week? I think I remember reading that you had a few full on days at work.
@Anastasia

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I definitely forget to be kind to myself. Criticism and punishment just seems so automatic.
Sending you lots of hugs my friend ❤️💙💜💚🧡💛
@Bunniekins

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I hear you hun. I cannot wAit for Rhys year to be over and done with.
@Zoe7

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@Former-Member Thinking of you sweetheart. Love you peaxxx

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Hearing you @Lee82 I need to leave Hon - can't be here right now ....sorry sweetheart.

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