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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I found ECT helped me for a while but wore off after around 4ish months.
we have the same sort of groups but my psychiatrist prefers me to do mindfulness groups or CBT or meditation. I don't contribute either. Social anxiety kicks in. I have been to a couple art groups which I enjoy.
@Eve7

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There the ones my pdoc wants me to attend @Lee82 and my Psych wants me to keep a gratitude journal.

I know the ECT wears off and I guess that’s why we attend CBT and mindfulness etc

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My MH team are wanting me to do EMDR therapy so I will have another hospital stay in March for a minimum of 4 weeks. This stay is due to me being in crisis and I am not sure when I get to go home.

I am hoping it's soon but I doubt it.
Just letting you know that I have to give me phone to the nurses soon as I am not allowed to have it in my room so I want to say thank you for chatting with me and keeping me company.
I truly hope that your ECT works for you this time hun. @Eve7 💚

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@Former-Member 😢

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@Former-Member ❤️💐🦋❤️

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@Former-Member

@Lee82

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Hi to all my forum family. How was everyones day today? Today for me was a pretty busy day but an ok day.
Nothing new to report just the usual. Psych appointments and group therapy classes. Starting to slowly get use to things here but haven't really made any friends as I usually try to keep to myself as much as I can. Trust is a very very difficult thing for me and also I have bad social anxiety especially around people I don't know. One thing I am missing in here is a bloody decent coffee form a cafe...☕️
Hope everyone has a lovely weekend and those in Melbourne hope you enjoy your long weekend.

sending you all my love and lots of hugs.
❤️💜💙💚🧡🧡

@Former-Member @Anastasia @Zoe7 @Eve7 @Schitzo @outlander @Emelia8 @Snowie @Sans911 @NatureLover @Fluttershy1 @BlueBay @Maggie

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@Former-Member Missing you my beautiful friend

. you are always in my heart. ❤️

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Good morning all, I hope your Saturday is a relaxed one for you amd you are able

to find some moments of joy in your day.

@Lee82 , so sorry I keep missing you my love. Busy with last minute wedding preparations for my nephews be day in exactly one week today. I will have to edit some pic and remove names but I will

try and post some pictures today of what I have been up in my craft room. I hope you are as well as you can be. Love you so very much.

@Anastasia @Eve7 @Zoe7 @Schitzo @outlander @Shaz51 @NatureLover @Emelia8

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I missed your message yesterday @Lee82 but it sounds like things are improving, with the exception of the coffee. Good coffee should be a pre requisite everywhere! Sending you lots and lots of my beautiful friend ❣️

Oh @Former-Member I am happy to hear you sounding more like yourself back in your craft room and preparing for your nephew's wedding, that's very exciting!

My bf got down on one knee last night to hug me whilst I was lying on the couch lol, my heart skipped a beat! Nothing to report 😀

Keep taking care of yourselves hugs and love and hugs and more ❣️

@Eve7 @Zoe7 @Schitzo and everyone else here 👋

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